Like going for some examination, i went to my delivery suite armed with 'the' perfect birth plan. Little did i know that God has the 'other plan' for me. LOL
As many of you know, my labour lasted abt 50 hours! YES! it's that long... and very very painful. I was prepared to go thru this birth easy, calm, relaxing and drug free but in the end, nothing in my birth plan came thru except that i didn't have a c-section.
Was it a waste of time than to plan so much as many people have asked me.... Well.. No! I was glad that by reading, researching and planing and doing all the necessary preparations, i had read up on all the possible procedures and medication, pain relief methods, induction and augmentation methods. So during my painful labour, i could make informed choices and know exactly was i was getting with each decision. I think in the end for me, that's what matters.
I'm glad that at the end of the day, my baby Tristan is safe and happy now. the period that he was in NICU was a big torture for me cos i had to go visit him whenever i can. Breastfeeding is difficult also cos he jus refuses to latch on. haiz...
Came back on fri and now still trying to adjust to life with him. It jus feels like having a new boyfriend n in a new relationship, very exciting, very happy but at the same time very nerve racking. LOL
I'm lucky that my mom is always around to help. She is jus amazing, cos without her, i dun even think i can cope or even Nap. Maybe only after being a mom myself, i started to appreciate the things she do for me although we still have our fights and disagreements. I guess it's jus like that for mom and daughter.
Having family around is great! My sis and Wangfei provides entertainment for my baby! It can be so funny sometimes, for those who have face book and can connect to my sis account, we 'put' the missing eyebrows on Tristan which we laugh until we couldn't stop..
Another person that i seem to take for granted is my darby, I must say that throughout my 50 hours of pain, without him constantly massaging me, encouraging me and loving me, i dun think i would have made it! As compared to me, my darby only had the small IKEA reclining chair to sleep on and he had to shutter between home and hospital everyday. What he had done for me and Tristan is jus beyond what i had expected or could have expect out of anybody.
It strange, i though that i might suffer from post natal depression but i can tell you now that i feel really great everyday! except that i get teary often.. hee hee
Tristan has put on weight since he came home.. Started at 2.69kg at birth, today he weights 3.12kg at 1 week!
Sorry picts all over the place, cos uploading it with my darby's comp and without photoshop... :P
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