Baby Mmooo

Tristan's Flash Cards

2011-05-16T23:41:00.001+08:00

I am so proud of my son! This is Tristan's progress in school. Maybe I am biased, but I think he's a friggin GENIUS! :P

Nex

2011-03-28T21:55:00.005+08:00

We headed to Nex during the weekend. They had a huge water play area for kids.. bb had so much fun getting WET!

Tristan goes to School!

2011-03-21T22:00:00.007+08:00

I am one of those kiasu mom who can't wait for their son to go to school.. hee hee. Finally, today is the 1st day of school for him. We are doing it for a trial period of 2 weeks to see if he is fully ready. But between both of us, i am the more excited one.

We've got alot of support too from both po po n yi yi. Popo bought his frog school bag n yi yi bought us a 'big boy' water bottle and we are set for school! Thank you Po po n Yi yi!!

The 1st day was good. Brought him to school n stayed with him for a while. After he got warmed up with the teachers, i told him that i was leaving and quickly exited the classroom. Of course he protested and cried a little but as soon as they started the circle time with singing and dancing, he settled down, Phew! Throughout the day, he didn't cry at all but i must say the teachers played a big part by carrying n comforting him. :)

政耀

2011-03-16T20:42:00.007+08:00

Bb loves water, I'll try to bring him for a swim once a week but if i can't, we'll have water play outside when it's a good day.

After going for mandarin class for half a year, bb can recognise his mandarin name 政耀 :P. Today, during snack time, when 老师 ask if he wants biscuit, he said 要, 谢谢.
There are simple moments like this where i feel a sense of pride seeing him
progressing so well. Good job son!

Farewell My Dogs...

2011-02-20T21:16:00.002+08:00

Today, Kim and Emily passed away..
Good bye & thank you for being such good doggies..

谢谢

2011-02-18T00:58:00.006+08:00

Most of the time i jus wouldn't know if bb is taking in anything i say to him until one day when he ask for shui (water) and when i handed his water bottle to him, i hear the golden words: "谢谢"... It just brighten my day. Although right now, he doesn't know the meaning of the words but it's really nice to know that he's copying the correct stuff instead of the occasional or accidental Sh** that i blurt out, forgetting he's there. opps... ha ha ha

Cheeky Monkey

2011-02-07T00:41:00.009+08:00

Yi yi bought us a new set of PJs for CNY.. Thanks Yi...

My cheeky monkey threw a wooden block at his cousin today and she got a big bak lu ku plus a cut on her forehead.. Haiz :( I was worried and felt very sorry for her. But at the same time, i felt very helpless as this is the stage where he doesn't really understand anything even if i discipline him..
So in the end, all i could do was to say countless sorrys to her and her parents.. :(

What really upset me was not so much the injury but instead hearing someone say:" This boy.. haiz.. is terrible, someone should really disciplined him.. he's really terrible!!" My heart really ache hearing someone say my son is terrible.. I wanted to ask him.. how could he be terrible when he's only 16 mths old? It was an accident. I'm not trying to find excuse for what my son did but at this age, playing together could cause accident right? I guess, as a mother, hearing someone say my child is terrible, really hurt.. So for me now is to watch my son well and make sure accidents like this does not happen again..

Sara mei mei

2011-01-24T23:32:00.001+08:00

Bb's most Beloved... Mei mei

Sara mei mei turns 9 mths today!! Happy 9 mths mei!!!!

Mei mei is progressing very well. She can now crawl n scoot around on her bum bum and her special ability.... STOP!- when u count while she's jumping and u say STOP!, she'll stop jumping!!! she has learned this at kampong play school!
Well done Mei!! She's such a Darling...

We are BACK!!!

2011-01-24T18:18:00.021+08:00

It's been so long since i updated my blog n also visiting other blogs! Today, since my bb is with the inlaw's, i thought i'll do some updating..

BUT.... i've changed to an iphone in sept last year n some of my bb's photos is in my sony ericsson. With the sim card being so small now, i need a card reader and i couldn't find mine... haiz...

So will update photos later when i get organised and get hold of a card reader.

These past 9 mths have been really fun for me. My mom n sis moved to their new place in april last year and since than, i've been taking care of bb alone with the occasional help from my mother in law, over the weekends and some weekdays. He's currently taking music n movement classes at Kampong play school and Chinese classes at Bibinogs which i must say, he has learned alot.

With Janet's recommendation (& also thank you for the CDs, toys and books!), bb started watching my baby can read when he was 10 mths old. I highly recommend it! bb picked up alot of words just by watching them every day. His favorite words now are
1. daddy, po po, mei mei, yi yi, gong gong, ye ye, nei nei, ma ma
2. mow (cat), yu (fish), shu (tree), hua (flower), shui (water), deng (light), su (book), su (comb)
3. ball (anything that's round), there (pointing to where he wans to go), bow, bus, juice, banana, apple, camel, bird, pig, bear, chick, rabbit, sheep, goat, monkey, mouse, hair, clip, pegs (cloths pegs), keep (keeping his toys)
4. car, pants, shoes, keys, boa boa(pls carry me), hole man (his favorite soft toy), play, sit, star, milk, shake, beat (although i try to discourage), bei bei (piggy back), kick, hair, tap

Those words that he can't say them, he'll sign them to me or he'll make the sound that the animal makes:
lion (a deep growl), elephant (swinging arm, mimicking the elephant's trunk), dog (patting his hand on my knee, the correct version is suppose to pat his own knee), butterfly (flapping his arms), cow (moo), duck (action like duck quacking).
He understands simple instructions now which really made my life easier. Most of the words he understands in both mandarin n English but when it comes to expressing, it's usually in English cos i think it's easier to pronounce n pick up.

Tristan started walking with he turned 1. There were times i think it's such a blessing because i can get a lot more done at home but because he's such a curious n active child, i jus wished that he's still a baby n needs to be carried around. :)

We Are 6 mths old today!

2010-04-05T23:27:00.018+08:00

We've come so far.. He's 6 mths old today! My baby started solids last week. Every meal time is so hilarious. He gets food all over him! The cereal seems to end up everywhere except his mouth. i think we need to send po po for some aiming classes! LOL... Not her fault actually.. my baby is super naughty and will move his head from left to right, looking up and down trying to avoid the spoon.

See... It's every where.. except IN his mouth!

With Janet yi yi's recommendation, we started with Friso cream cereal, which smells good. On the 1st day, we added breast milk with it, it ended up being super sweet! Subsequently, we jus add water n it tasted better. So far, he has tasted mango ( jus a little), potatoes and pork rib porridge. Now po po makes him super yummy porridge which I think he prefers (with lots of TLC) cos i was also salivating jus looking at it! Today's menu.. fish porridge with ikan bilis powder and spinach.. sounds good right?

Super bad hair day.. as we try again for our 2nd meal.. this time, more went into his mouth!

I'm looking forward to his swimming trial lesson this coming sat. We are all set...Bought his thermal swim suit, sun block- SPF 50+ and yi yi also bought him a giant green towel ( the wrap kind with hood)!Yesterday at Ikea.. Screaming away... ahem.. testing our voice.. n yes.. most of ikea can HEAR us!

Home Alone- Mission Accomplished!

2010-03-14T00:07:00.004+08:00

If you remember i was abit nervous abt being Home alone with my son while po po is on the cruise. Well, it turned out ok! Actually more than ok. I managed to sleep while he sleeps and do my house work, chop chop within 1 hour of his nap. With Yee yee's help, i even prepared dinner for the 5 of us that's left at home! Day 1 dinner was good: Roast duck ( bought by yee yee) and vegie soup! The expensive Duck ($32 from marine parade mkt) was good. On Day 2, we had Wanton+ Char siew noodle. but on day 3, we all ate out and po po came back.

During these 3.5 days, i manage to bond better with my baby son. It felt special.. I dun really know how to describe that feeling... but i know tat i love him more. Am actually looking forward to caring for him full time starting May, when baby Sara is out! Can't wait for her to come out too!

Home Alone 0.5

2010-03-07T23:40:00.003+08:00

Picture taken wearing that 'forbidden' romper.. lol

Today, i had a 'preview' of what to expect when my mom moves out in may... being home n almost alone (today is Sunday n darby is around) cos my mom went on the cruise n will only be back on wed evening. It was both exciting and at the same time.. scary.

Usually on a typical day, with my mom around, my baby will wake up at abt 7.30am. i'll feed him milk and bring him over to my mom's place at 8am. Than i'll express milk, bring the required bottles of milk over, play with him for a while and will go sleep by 10am. I'll wake up at abt 2- 2.30pm, express milk, have my lunch, rush to do my housework and have a bath. I'll try to finish everything by 5pm so that i can bring my baby back as my mom needs to cook dinner. From 5pm onwards, it's my 'shift duty' to take care of him. LOL

I'll bring him back n we'll read or watch educational dvds or that disney for kids channel till abt 6.30pm before we go for our walk. By 6.30, if i dun get out of the house, Tristan will usually fuss n get really difficult. We'll walk around Bedok Central till abt 8pm than will go back for dinner. At 9pm i'll put my baby to sleep and usually by 10- 10.30pm, after expressing milk, i'll have some free time... my R&R time!

Today, my schedule jus went haywire. for example, i tried to put him on the Jumperoo, turn on the Chinese song DVD for kid for him to watch while i do house work but that failed badly. He cried non stop, i felt so bad so had to stop everything n carry him. Finally manage to put him to sleep to continue but he only slept for 20 mins n woke up.. house work not finished yet! haiz.. Had to ask darby to help.

I need to plan my time better tomorrow. Dun wan a repeat again cos after these few days of 'trial', i'll have to manage the actual thing in May when my mom moves out. Keeping my fingers crossed :P

3 Cheers for Yee yee!

2010-03-05T23:07:00.004+08:00

Yee Yee bought a Fisherprice rainforest Jumperoo for my baby and Sara on sat. And ever since than, we are having a jumping good time everyday!

At 1st he was not used to it and couldn't sit in it for long but after a few days of trying, he realised that he could do his favorite new skill--- JUMP.. JUMP.. JUMP! So now he is training his little legs by jumping up n down while Mummy n popo take a break from carrying him! Thrumbs up for yee yee! and a must buy for all tired Mummies amd grandmas!

My Baby has been drinking more during each feed now and he's also sleep longer on most nights. Now he goes to bed by 10pm and only wakes up at 1pm and 4pm for his feed. :P Hopefully, he'll be able to sleep thru soon!

Thank you, Daddy!!!

2010-02-21T23:55:00.010+08:00

Today, The Chuas, the Wangs and the Ongs had a very nice Tim sum branch at Tong Lok Paramount hotel. The food is really yummy man! As usual, we had our catch up + gossiping session! Although there were 31/2 under 18s there, we still managed to tune to the Ahem.....P.O.R.N Channel!... all thanks to Steven Yi Jong!!! LOL

Domi with Tristan (sorry think my finger blocking so abit blur but i thought this pict is very sweet..)

Domi took Photograph of his mummy , daddy n yi jong
Discovered a very Talented young photographer who took such a nice photograph of me! Thanks Domi

After the Branch, we went to parkway n Darby bought a Lime Green Bumbo chair for Tristan n Sara! we were so excited we went home to immediately try it n he likes it. Thank You daddy, now we are ready for our 1st meal of solids in 11/2 mths time! hee hee

*Oh, I need to especially mention that it was Steven Yi Jong who recommended us the Bumbo Chair ;P Thank you Yi Jong!!!!

Preserving these precious moments!

2010-02-19T00:12:00.003+08:00

I've been Motivated to frame up my baby's photos so started this new project decorating the frames. I wanted to capture n keep these precious moments before my baby grow up cos he's growing up too fast!

Bought the frame from Ikea, paper from Tampinese 1, stars from Spot light and took 2 nights to finish up this photo frame.
After that, i got so addicted and did another frame for me and Darby.. Frame also from Ikea, paper from Tampinese 1, Flowers from cherry blossom CNY deco (but i modified it a little).

Happy Tiger Year , Baby!

2010-02-17T01:14:00.008+08:00

Chinese New year is usually a busy time for us but this year, it's quieter than usual. We only went to my grandma's grave on the 1st day and than my aunty's house on the 2nd day. I miss the noisy and busy days where we were ferried around visiting relatives. My cousins and i would be either playing in the home of relative or along the corridor. Gone were those day, as many of my cousins are overseas. We Miss You, those in Perth and Sydney! :(

Gong Xi Fa Cai to everyone!

This is my baby's 1st Chinese New Year! Happy New Year Baby! May you grow strong and healthy in the tiger year! Next CNY, we'll have a new member joining us! HUAT AH!!!!

Cutest Tu-chi

2010-02-09T22:01:00.004+08:00

My sis had got the cutest tu-chi i've ever seen! it sticks out.. So cute right.. LOL
Hello Sara Wang!

Surprises Everyday!

2010-02-09T01:15:00.005+08:00

It has reach a time where my son is growing up so fast that there are new surprises everyday. Now that rolling over is a breeze for him, he's trying to crawl like an inch worm! ( lifting his bum high up n push with his legs) super cute but it also mean that i need to keep an eye on him as this lifting n pushing movement meant that he can travel pretty fast n before i know it, he has already crawl to the other end of the bed.

He has also realised that by screaming, he can get our attention and what he wants. So he screams when he is happy, n definitely screams when he's angry or upset.

Tristan is also a very moody fellow. He can be happy and giggling, totally friendly one minute and the next minute, he can be the opposite- pulling my hair, face red, fist clenched, arched back n very upset.

Rolling Over n over n over...

2010-02-03T22:39:00.008+08:00

Now that my baby has learnt to roll over, he's really maximising his skills. Trying to roll over when i'm changing his diapers, rolling over while drinking his milk, even waking up in the middle of the night to roll over and have a conversation with me. Seeing him putting his abilities to good use whenever there is an opportunity is really amusing. He's getting stronger and heavier every day, especially when he's throwing a fit because he's tired really challenges my arms, legs and body power. LOL

Here's another Version of a mother's pray by Celine Dion... another beautiful song that made me cry and want to hug my baby...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DRXA4qCz7ZM

A Mother's Prayer by Celine Dion

I pray you'll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe

I pray she finds your light
And holds it in her heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind her where you are

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide her with your grace
Give her faith so she'll be safe

Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe

A Mother's Prayer

2010-02-03T00:10:00.013+08:00

Stumbled upon this song while searching for a lullaby for my baby.. A very beautiful song.. Heard it n cried..

This is her story:
This song came straight from my heart one night as I prayed over my sleeping daughter. As I stared at her beautiful frame I was just moved to tears by what an amazing gift from God she really is. She was born with neurofibromatosis and is considered legally blind. Some would have advised while she was still in the womb that I should have had an abortion because she isn't "perfect". That would have been a tragedy. As this song has been passed around it has been used in many different ways- pro-life rallies, baby dedications, Mother's Day events, and as a simple lullaby sung over a sleeping baby. My hope is that this song would inspire all mothers to pray over their babies (no matter how old the baby is) and to see the value of human life.
Rachel Aldous

You can listen to the song on youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=re5EIUIXbhc

A Mother's Prayer by Rachel Aldous

Verse:
My sweet baby on loan from above
no better treasure could I more love
I stand here beside your bed as I pray
I lay my hand on your head and I say:

Chorus:
May you grow up to serve Him
all of your days
May He lead you and guide you
in all of your ways
May His hand bless your future with
friendships that last
May you cherish your youth
and not grow up too fast

Verse:
I stare in wonder at your tiny frame
Just to think that God knows you by name
He knows every hair on your beautiful head
He knows all your thoughts before they are said

Chorus:
May you grow up to serve Him
all of your days
May He lead you and guide you
in all of your ways
May His hand bless your future with
friendships that last
May you cherish your youth
and not grow up too fast

Prayer:
May God grant you peace
in the midst of a storm
May God give you strength even
when youre forlorn
May you answer the door when
Jesus comes knocking
May wisdom guide you when
your mouth is talkin
May discretion protect you
and keep you pure
May you never stumble
or fall for a lure
May your heart remain humble
to the very end
May uprightness and truth
be what you defend
May the world not ensnare
or change who you are
May the light that's within you
shine like the stars
May angels surround you
body, spirit, mind
May favor and peace be yours to find
May rejection and pain
never reach you
May your spirit grow bold
for what youre called to

As you rest in Gods care I will rest too
Knowing that Jesus is watching over you
Amen

Hannah speaks: I love you, Mommy

Timeline of a Love Affair

2010-02-01T02:45:00.012+08:00

Read this article n thot that it was really interesting! For those married.. take note n keep the fire burning :P

Timeline of a Love Affair

Being in love is a powerful experience unlike anything else. It's an altered state in which people think and act very differently than usual. Some people never get to experience it, but many of us do at least once in a lifetime.

Those who have experienced it also know that the powerful rush doesn't last forever. And when those feelings end, the relationship often ends, too. Yet many couples manage to move on from that stage to keep their love affair going.

We used to turn to poets for insight on the mysteries of love, but now we ask doctors and researchers. Science offers two basic ways of understanding love affairs. One is to look for what many different people in different love relationships tend to have in common. The other is to look at how chemicals in the brain mix to make us feel various emotions related to sex and love.

But first things first. Just what is it that makes two people fall in love, hard and fast?

Madly in Love

Beginning in 1965, a psychologist named Dorothy Tennov began to study the state of being in love as something different from other ways that people love each other. In 1979, she published a book summing up her research, in which she coined a new scientific term for "in love." She called it "limerence." Based upon hundreds of interviews with people in love, she came up with a general description of the condition.

In the beginning, we become very interested in another person.
If the other person seems interested in us, we become even more interested in that person.
We feel a keen sense of longing for the other person's attention.
We become interested in only that person and no one else.
Our interest develops into an obsession: We can't stop thinking about the other person even if we try to concentrate on other things.
We daydream and fantasize about the other person constantly.
The relationship causes euphoria -- an intense "high" or feeling of joy and well-being.
We think about engaging in sexual activities with the other person.
Sometimes we feel an aching sensation or pain in the chest.
We fail to notice or refuse to acknowledge any faults in the other person, and no logical argument can change our positive view.

This Is Your Brain on Love

Researchers have looked for changes in the brain that may go along with the state of limerence. Studies show that the brain chemicals dopamine and serotonin may be related to the peculiar feelings and behavior of people in love.

Dopamine is a feel-good brain chemical. When the brain is flooded with dopamine, we feel various degrees of well-being, from contentment to euphoria. High dopamine levels may be related to the "high" people experience early in a love affair. People in love also tend to notice less need for sleep, extra energy, and decreased appetite. Some scientists think it's no coincidence that these are also common effects of amphetamines and cocaine, which alter the mind mainly by raising dopamine levels.

The downside of high dopamine is anxiety, restlessness, and emotional volatility. Such bad feelings are often mixed up with good ones in passionate love affairs. Dopamine plays a role in our ability to concentrate and control our thoughts, so elevated dopamine levels could explain lovers' tendency to focus exclusively on their beloved.

Because low serotonin in the brain is related to obsessive disorder, some scientists think low serotonin is a likely explanation for the way people in love obsess about their beloved.

Falling in love has been linked to hormonal changes, too. Researchers in Italy who studied serotonin and love affairs compared hormone levels of people recently fallen in love and those who were single or in a long-lasting relationship. They found that women who had recently fallen in love had higher testosterone levels than those who had not recently fallen in love, and men in love had lower testosterone than those who had not. Both men and women who had recently fallen in love also had higher levels of the stress hormone cortisol. When researchers tested these people again one to two years later, their hormone levels were no longer different.

The "in-love" stage of a love affair typically lasts six to 18 months, and occasionally as long as three years, says Denise Bartell, PhD, psychologist at the University of Wisconsin, Green Bay. But it does wane at some point. People get used to loving each other, maybe in the same way that people develop tolerance to the effects of mind-altering drugs.

Cuddly Hormones

Something keeps people together after the thrill wears off, however. "At a certain point there's a crossover from passion to intimacy," Bartell says, although, "that's not to say there's no passion in a relationship after that." People keep loving each other in a special way, and they keep having sex.

It seems likely that hormones are involved in intimacy, which psychologists also call attachment. Some research points to oxytocin and vasopressin, hormones thought to give us the "warm fuzzies." These hormones may also play a role in bonding between human mothers and babies.

Breaking Up

If people were simple creatures, the hormonal process of romantic attachment would keep all love affairs going strong after passing through the "limerence" stage. People are not simple, and many couples who were perfectly, blissfully in love a year ago have split up and are seeing other people today.

Love affairs that start with falling in love may be set up to fail. Initially the lovers are in denial about any faults their beloved may have, and they're impervious to logic should anyone else suggest that the relationship may be a bad idea. After "limerence" wears off, certain things become painfully apparent.

So-called "fatal attraction" is another reason why love affairs end. In fatal attraction, a quality that one initially finds attractive in a lover is the same quality that sinks the relationship. For example, we may fall for a person's delightful sense of humor, but then come to see it as flakiness. Attractive qualities are usually two-sided. If a sexy and charming partner cheats, it's because he or she is charming and sexy to other people, too. A thrilling person may actually be dangerous. A doting, attentive lover may be overly possessive.

Researchers studying the love affairs of college students found that fatal attraction was involved in one-third of breakups. Extreme qualities were most likely to be "fatal." Lovers who were attracted to partners who were very different from them were also more likely to split up.

Sharing Keys, Swapping Rings

Most people in long-term relationships end up getting married, if the law allows it. But in the United States today, couples commonly live together for a while first. According to surveys conducted 1997 by the National Opinion Research Center at the University of Chicago, more than one-third of adults in their mid-20s to mid-30s who had been married lived with their spouse before marrying. About 40% in this age group had ever lived with a romantic partner while unmarried.

Nevertheless, such arrangements are usually short-lived, lasting on average one year before the couple breaks up or gets married. Looking at it another way, the CDC's National Center for Health Statistics estimates that 30% of unwed couples living together will get married after one year and 70% will after five years. The likelihood of breaking up instead of getting married is 30% after one year and 49% after five years.

The University of Chicago surveys also found that about half of unmarried people involved a love affair thought they would likely marry the one they were with.

For many people in the United States, being married is no more "forever" than being in love is. The CDC estimates that two out of five first marriages will end in divorce or separation after 15 years. U.S. Census numbers show that only about half of those married between the years 1970-1979 celebrated a 25th wedding anniversary.

Sex and Marriage: "Seven Year Itch?"

Couples probably have sex with each other less often the longer they are married. That's assumed because surveys find that married people report having sex less often the older they are. The University of Chicago's survey shows married adults under age 30 say they have sex an average of 109 times a year. The average number drops to 70 times per year for forty-somethings, 52 times a year for people in their 50s, and so on.

The survey also shows that married people younger than 30 are those most likely to have sex with someone other than their spouse. But there's no clear increase or decrease as people age, and by extension, the length of marriage.

The recurring question about a "seven year itch" is a funny case of fiction taking on a life of its own. The Seven Year Itch is the title of a 1955 movie starring Marilyn Monroe, which refers to a pretend chapter title in a made-up book by a fictional quack psychoanalyst who claims that men tend to have extramarital sexual affairs after seven years of marriage. Prior to the 1952 debut of the Broadway play upon which the movie was based, the "seven year itch" was just a folksy name for scabies. (Scabies is a very itchy condition caused by tiny mites living in a person's skin. It used to be hard to cure, and it could last for years.)

In general, infidelity is not rampant in the United States. In any given year, only 3%-4% of married people say they've had sex with someone besides their spouse. About 16% say they have ever done so.

The Long Slide

Over time, married people tend to become less and less satisfied with their relationship -- not something you'd want to mention when toasting a bride and groom.

"On average, the newlywed period is a high point in the history of the relationship," Benjamin Karney, PhD, a psychologist at the University of California, Los Angeles, tells WebMD. "From there, it's hard to get better," he says.

For many years, common wisdom stated that happiness in marriage followed "U-shape" course, declining gradually into middle age and then gradually increasing into the golden years. This idea was flawed because it was based on studying groups of couples at a certain point in time, then plotting satisfaction with age. "The people who have been married the longest are a select group," Karney says. "They're the survivors."

When researchers looked at what happened with certain married couples over a long time period, satisfaction didn't follow a U-shaped course. In fact, it tended to fall from day one and never went up. The steepest drops were at the very beginning and in late life.

On the bright side, the decline stays within a narrow range near the top of the satisfaction scale. On a scale where one is least and twenty is most satisfied, couples tend to start at about 19 and end up at about 16.

Ties That Bind

So how does a love affair survive and thrive?

Having good communication and keeping relationship problems in perspective are the quick and easy answers, "but they're the small potatoes," Bartell says. "How we chose our partners is most important."

But not all long-term relationships are carefully calculated. Some couples commit. Others "get committed" by circumstance or inertia. That can keep relationships on the shelf past their best-by date. "People have to be aware when these things are happening," Bartell says. "It may seem inconsequential that you get a dog with your boyfriend, but it's really not."

Making a conscious commitment is important. Research shows that solidly committed couples are less vulnerable to relationship threats than more uncertain couples are. Threats may include partners' potentially "fatal" flaws, hurtful things they may say or do to one another, temptation from sexy other men or women, pressure from anyone who disapproves of the relationship, and all the sundry misfortunes that can befall people.

In other words, a love affair has more staying power when lovers aren't questioning whether the other is "the one."

Take Heart

The big limitation of science in the study of love affairs is that it can't predict what will happen to any particular love affair. Averages tell us what's normal, but they flatten out all the tragic and triumphant love stories that have been sung about for millennia. That's a good thing if you have high hopes for love.

MASTITIS!!! MASTITIS!!! MASTITIS.!!!

2010-01-29T02:33:00.002+08:00

Haiz.. My Best friend is here to visit again!!! MASTITIS!! Arrgghh

I seem to be getting it every mth or when i dun have enough sleep. Now my left breast is so swollen n painful. Having chills and fever also. Really hate this feeling :(

Sleeping Baby

2010-01-26T23:16:00.002+08:00

I feel so contented everytime look at my sleeping baby. These couple of days, because of his stomach flu, he'll wake up in the middle of the night crying while trying to pooo.. so poor thing.. haiz.. Hope he'll recover soon.

Stomach Flu

2010-01-23T00:36:00.015+08:00

My baby 'trying to Pang Sai'

Tristan has been having stomach flu since wed and seeing him in pain when he wans to 'pang sai' aches my heart. He's Pooing more than his usual 2-3 time a day and I know my mom is feeling more heartache than anyone of us. So between us, we are really feeding him with alot of breast milk.

Whenever i look at his poo, i always wonder, why does he have to put in so much effort, when it is so watery? It seems easy enough to 'squeeze' out right? But seeing him concentrating hard, making grunting noises, clenching his fists, kicking his legs and sometime even his little face will turn red is so damn cute. LOL

Saw the baby doc today.. Wah so expensive man! Just consultation plus 3 medicine cost me $88. Maybe next time (touch wood) will see the GP, unless it's really serious. :P

The 1st 3 months

2010-01-20T00:01:00.016+08:00

The 3 mths are a major turning point in my life. 3 Mths ago i gave birth to my precious baby boy Tristan, than because of such a long labour, he had to stay in the NICU for 5 days. Straight following that was my unforgettable confinement, which was a crash course to parenting. I didn't expect that waking up every 2 hours can be so tiring and 4 hrs sleep was such a privilege.

After his full moon party, darby also had to go back to work so i had to re-adjust my time again to fit in my 4-5 hrs of sleep, 1-2 hrs of house work, taking over the baby from my mom and expressing milk. It was tough at 1st but now everything fits into a schedule that i jus follow very day... my boring life. LOL

Well, Tristan had his 2nd Hep B jab and he is also circumcised! (will upload the video soon.. but not for the faint hearted and Definitely not for dads!) He was crying throughout the whole procedure not from the pain but more from the nurse trying to hold him down. My darby was more tramatised than my baby cos after that, he needed to take the rest of the day off from work! hee hee. Recovery was only 5 days and other than being a bit swollen, he was actually ok and didn't even need to take the panadol that the doc gave us.

Tomorrow will be his 1st 5 in 1 jab. Jus to take this jab, it's our 3rd time going to the polyclinic.. (long story.. haiz). Tristan has grown alot since his birth and seeing him growing, getting stronger and smiling at me when he sees me, completes my life. He is growing up day by day changing every week and i thank God for letting me experience motherhood through my baby boy.. Tristan.. :P

How 5kg changed my life

2009-11-26T23:55:00.002+08:00

What changes when you have a baby? A better question may be: What doesn't change? Found these on a website n thought that what was written is really true.

Just 7 week and my life has COMPLETELY turned around! Jus a year ago, i wouldn't expect that i'll be able to wake up in the middle of the night esp every 2 hours to feed my baby but everytime when i sees him smiling at me, my heart would jus melt! :P

1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.

2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.

3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.

4. You respect your body ... finally.

5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way.

6. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own.

7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child.

8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago.

9. Your heart breaks much more easily.

10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day.

11. Every day is a surprise.

12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)

13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.

14. You become a morning person.

15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power.

16. "You discover how much there is to say about one tooth."

17. "You finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth."

18. "You now know where the sun comes from."

19. "You'd rather buy a plastic tricycle than those shoes that you've been dying to have."

20. "You realize that although sticky, lollipops have magical powers."

21. "You don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night."

22. "Silence? What's that?"

23. "You realize that the 15 pounds you can't seem to get rid of are totally worth having."

24. "You discover an inner strength you never thought you had."

25. "You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule."

26. "You give parents with a screaming child an 'I-know-the-feeling' look instead of a 'Can't-they-shut-him-up?' one."

27. "Your dog — who used to be your 'baby' — becomes just a dog."

28. "You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late."

29. "You learn that taking a shower is a luxury."

30. "You realize that you can love a complete stranger."

31. You find yourself wanting to make this world a better place.

32. If you didn’t believe in love at first sight before, now you do!

33. You start to appreciate Sesame Street for its intellectual contribution.

34. You have to quit watching the news because you see every story from a mother's perspective and it breaks your heart.

35. You just plain love life more - everything comes together and becomes better because of one tiny person and your love for them.

36. You finally find out the real reason you have those breasts.

37. In response to #2 [above], I'd say that where you were once afraid, you're now fearless. I was always very timid and shy and let myself get walked all over … but now where my kid's concerned, I'll speak my mind and really connect with my inner "b"!

38. The support you get from other people surprises you, because the people giving it are not always the ones you'd expect.

39. Nothing is just yours any longer. You share EVERYTHING!

40. No matter what you've accomplished in life, you look at your child and think, "I've done a GREAT job!"

41. You want to take better care of yourself for your child.

42. You can have the most wonderful conversation using only vowel sounds like "ahhh" and "oooo."

Still no sleep

2009-11-14T21:33:00.002+08:00

Having to do the night shift (taking care of baby at night) has taken over my life. I used to enjoy partying till the wee hours at night and still can wake up the next day feeling alive but now, having to take care of my baby at night, feeding him every 2 hours and expressing milk every 4 hours is really making me so exhausted! when will this end? or at least gets better?

i can't wait for the time where he will at least sleeps longer at night so that i can also have my beauty sleep. hiaz... now my routine starts at 2pm when i wake up, have my breakfast cum lunch, do housework and bath by 5 pm. Start feeding him and taking over from my mom until i have my dinner at abt 7.30pm. his fussy time begins abt 9pm till abt 1am where he will refuse to sleep and just fuss and cries. I just hope sometimes i know what he wants cos at times i feel like a failure when i just can't comfort him. he will finally dose off at around 1am than wake up abt every 2 hours to feed. i will do my expressing at 1am than wash up and quickly go to bed before he wakes up again. My next expressing time is around 4-5am either after or before his feed. Abt 7am, i am usually super tired and will start dosing off whenever i feed him. My happiest moment is 9am when i know i can finally pass him to my mom, express one last time and finally go to bed by 10am. This cycle will repeat again at 2pm :(

Sometimes i find that i do not have a life anymore. i no longer have time to do my own stuff like reading, knitting or even go out. i miss being pregnant where we are 2 in one rather than now where everything i do has to fit into his schedule. Will i ever get used to it? No wonder woman gets post natal depression. i do wonder how woman without family help pull thru this super tough time. i really salute them man!

Confinement

2009-10-28T20:34:00.003+08:00

Confinement.. wat a scary word. Being pregnant is such a wonderful feeling esp when you add the freedom that comes with it. Child birth is such a torture. 1st, there is the painful labour with the pushing and tearing and than straight after that, the discomfort and occasional pain from the stitches and bleeding below. Now, when my breast starts to get engorged and feel like they are going to explode or when my milk ducts are clogged and i starts to get fever from Mastitis, i really wonder What's next?

I've read alot about it but when i experience all these myself, it can be so overwhelming esp when it come with the lack of sleep.i should be considered the lucky few already. with my darby helping with the house work and my mom helping with the baby in the day, I am indeed very very lucky :)..
Really wonder how those who dun live with their parent cope with all these.

I'm still adjusting to sleeping when the baby sleeps and expressing milk every 4 hourly. My baby now totally feeds on breatmilk but he still refuses to latch on cos when he was in the NICU he was already given the bottle :(. Actually this could be a blessing in disguise for me so my mom, sis and darby can help out with the feeding, and i can actually measure out the amt of milk that he consumes.

Baby Tristan is gaining alot of weight now and he has definitely grown longer. I have no time to weight him yet, will do so and update his length!

Now Abt confinement, My only complain is not being able to wash my hair and bath as often as i like and drink water as much as i want. Other than that, i'm eating well cos my mom makes yummy food for me but currently am overdosed with chicken already so will avoid chicken for a while after this mth! Luckily it's only 1 mth!!!! hee hee

50 Hour of Torture!

2009-10-15T23:16:00.005+08:00

Fri 2nd Oct 2009
6.30 am- Menses- like contractions started. It was still barable. Woke up cos couldn't really sleep. Was wondering if to day was D-day.
8am- waiting for my sis to come back so that we can go and eat our favourite Teo noodles. After that, walked around interchange. contractions got stronger.
12 noon- mom made fried rice and i went to take a nap after that. now the contractions got stonger, about 20 mins apart so it is still early.
3pm- called darby cos constractoisn are now like 10- 15 mins apart n he said he'll come back home. Called Dr Lai also. Dr lai asked if i'm ok and said to go to the hospital if contractions are 3-5 mins apart.
4pm- darby came back, i could not sleep althgough the contractions were stronger that the once in the morning. tried to do some last min packing of the bags for hospital and the room so that it's ready for baby!
8pm- had a light dinner cos contractions were really getting stronger now and abt 5 mins aprt. But we wanted to make sure so decided to wait till it is more regular.
10 pm- decided to go to the hospital cos didn't want to wait till last min.
11pm- reached hospital and settled down but when the nurse checked me, was surprise to find that i'm only 1-2 cm dialated. Wah piangs!!!! a long night ahead man!!! :(

Sat 3rd Oct 2009- Mooncake Festival!
2am- Dr Lai came in to see me cos the nurses called him. I was actually surprise to see him so early in the morning. he checked me n said i was 1-2 cm dialated. he said he can try to 'stretch me' so that i could open more. although only 1-2 cm dialated but my cervics has thinned out so it's good. at least 1 thing is going smoothly. he said that with thing going at this speed, i might take a while to dialate fully n it could be more than 24 hrs. So Option A - to wait at the delivery suite, Option B - to go home 1st and wait or Options C - to wait in the more comfortable hospital room. I picked option A cos didn't wan to move around as the contractions are getting intensed but they are not regular.
4am- 8am- the contractions were getting really intensed now. at least every 1-2 mins, 1 major contraction. I try to relax and take long breath but it's making me wanting to vomit everytime i have contactions. my back and bum also ache like crazy.. This is when the rice sock and microwave oven comes in handy. you wouldn't believe it, it cost less that $15 to make 2 rice sock but what a differance it made to the relieve of pain. Without it, i could have died. darby massage me everytime my surges come in. we tried standing up but everytime i have surges, my legs will jus go weak!
8.30am- Dr lai came in to see me a 2nd time, He checked me again but i'm only 2 cm dialated, he said that my baby is the the OP position ( occiput posterior- baby is facing down but back of head is facing my back) which will cause intense pain especially on the lower back and bum area and a long labour! he asked me if i wanted to have pain relieve. Suddenly, the word 'pain relieve' sounds so magical to me esp after so much pain. But we decided to wait a little longer.
9.30am- i couldn't take it any more so told darby that i really needed to have the Pethedine jab. the nurses came in to give me the jab that could last up to 6 hrs. i was hoping by than, i would have dialated some more.
12pm- managed to fall asleep but the medication is already starting to ware off. i could feel the painful contractions come back :(
4pm- darby went back home to clean the house n feed animals. the nurses also brought the gym ball in so decided to sit on the gym ball and take a walk around the room. tried to do the 'polar bear' position, hoping to dis-engage baby and help him change position. walking aound actually should speed up the dialation but in my case, it doesn't help.
6pm- too painful so decided to take another shot of the Pethedine jab. managed to fall asleep after that cos was too exhausting already. I couldn't really eat although food was provided cos everytime i have surges, i feel like vomitting.
8pm- Dr lai came again to see me- this time, he ordered a ultra sound machine to be brought in. the ultra sound confirmed that baby is in OP position and i'm still only abt 3 cm dialated. He suggested that i use Protaglandin gel to help soften my cervics so to aid dialation. My goodness, after that, my contractions were more intensed and frequent. I wanted to have another jab cos it was so so painful, but the nurses told me to use the laughing gas instead cos too much Pethedine jad will make teh baby drowsy and no good for him, Bo bian n still very painful i used the gas throughout the night. How the gas works is that you need to breath in until the peak of the contraction and than stop using it. maybe it's the deep breathing, which helped a bit. I tried every position possible, standup, sitting on the gym ball rocking back and forth and walking around. That was pssibly the longest night ever for me!

Sun 4th Oct 2009- My Birthday!
7am- Dr Lai came in again to check me but i'm still only 2-3 cm dialated.. Haiz. we discussed augmentation methods.. he gave me a few options: Options A- burst the water bag and wait cos usally it might speed up labour. Option B- Burst water bag and use Oxytocin ( the hormones used to induced labour) to speed up labour which will be more effective than Option A. But if i decided to use Oxytocin, i shoud seriously consider the use of epidural cos the surges will be more intensed and frequent. Wah lau, after so many hours, the word 'more instensed and frequent' really frightened me man!
I went with option A 1st. So he burst my water bag. It was a strange feeling cos warm water started to gash out. He siad water is clear cos there is no sign of meconium ( baby's shit). Dr Lai said that he will leave the Option of using oxytocin and Epidural up to me and if i have decided to use it, i can jus let the nurses know and they will arrage every thing.
9.30 am- too painful! Decided to use Oxytocin and Epidural. So The nurses call in the anesthesiologist and he administed the IV and than the epdural catheter for me. I find the whole experience ok except the jab he gave me numb the skin painful. the epidural took abt 10 mins to work and after that, i totally knocked off man and jus slept through the surges although some of them, i could feel that i'm contracting but it was not painful.
12pm- I was running a fever becos of the epidural so now the nurses were monitoring the fetal heart rate and me more regularly.
8pm- One of the nurses checked me but i'm only abt 6 cam dialated. Was actually hoping to give birth to me today.

Mon 5th Oct 2009
12am- the nurse checked me and call Dr Lai. I'm still runnign a fever and the baby is showing some destress alreday cos of the drop in heart rate.
1.45am- Dr Lai came in, cheked me and told me that the situation is not too good cos there is thick meconium present so we need to give birth now. The nurses prepared and got everthing ready. when i told darby who jus woke up that i'm going to give birth now, he was so shocked. within 5-10 mins, everyone was ready, except me.
Dr Lai said he'll use the Kiwi suction cup to 'pull ' baby out while i try to push him out. We need to do it fast if not, we'll have to do a emergency c-section. that seriously got me motivated. The epidural was turned off so that i could feel the contractions and start pushing.
2am- still numb, i couldn't feel anything at all but whenever the nurses feel a contraction coming, they told me to hold my breath n push. I seriously dun know what i was pushing but i jus followed instruction. This whole 20 mins was tiring. Everytime i was told to push, i jus look at the mother mary picture on the wall infront of me and told her to give me the strength to push and i jus kept doing that. It felt like i was going to the toilet n was very constipated.
2.22am- Tristen was born! but before he had his 1st breath, Dr Lai suctioned out most of the meconium present in his mouth and nose and immediately, when he's born, darby was told to cut the cord and handed him to Dr Tan, the pediatrician. Dr Tan than suction the meconium present in his air ways. I took a 10 sec look at him and he was immediately wheeled of to the NICU. So much for skin to skin contact that i'm so craved for.. haiz :(
Dr lai stitched me up and told me that the perineum stretching that we were doing helped and i only tear a little. But at that point, i couldn't care much about how much i tear, i was exhausted, sore and very worried about my baby.
3.30am- i was wheeled to my room. I told darby to go look at our baby n give him some moral support. I'm not allowed to see him until the epidural wears off in abt 6 hrs time. Haiz...

I stayed in the hospital till fri 9th oct 2009 cos baby has to finish up his course of antibiaotics. 95% so to be on the safe side, we needs to finish his antibiotics.

It was tough for me. In a lot of ways i kept asking myslef if i would have done it differently? would i have opted for a c-section earlier when i know that he's in Op position so that baby would not have to go thru all these? or would i have opted to use augmentaion ealier so as to lesser my pain and that baby be born ok? In alot of ways, i'm glad that i decided to still have a vaginal birth instead of a c-section becos the recovery time is alot lesser and i can stand up and walk after 6hrs and visit the NICU regularly. but if i could change 1 thing, it would be to opt for augmentation ealier so taht he would not be in destress and born ok and we could have skin to skin contact and start breast feeding normally.

Well, I guess if i were to have another baby, i might not remember much of the 50 hrs of pain but i will do things very differently!
:D

Birth Plan vs God's Plan

2009-10-13T02:27:00.008+08:00

Like going for some examination, i went to my delivery suite armed with 'the' perfect birth plan. Little did i know that God has the 'other plan' for me. LOL

As many of you know, my labour lasted abt 50 hours! YES! it's that long... and very very painful. I was prepared to go thru this birth easy, calm, relaxing and drug free but in the end, nothing in my birth plan came thru except that i didn't have a c-section.

Was it a waste of time than to plan so much as many people have asked me.... Well.. No! I was glad that by reading, researching and planing and doing all the necessary preparations, i had read up on all the possible procedures and medication, pain relief methods, induction and augmentation methods. So during my painful labour, i could make informed choices and know exactly was i was getting with each decision. I think in the end for me, that's what matters.

I'm glad that at the end of the day, my baby Tristan is safe and happy now. the period that he was in NICU was a big torture for me cos i had to go visit him whenever i can. Breastfeeding is difficult also cos he jus refuses to latch on. haiz...

Came back on fri and now still trying to adjust to life with him. It jus feels like having a new boyfriend n in a new relationship, very exciting, very happy but at the same time very nerve racking. LOL

I'm lucky that my mom is always around to help. She is jus amazing, cos without her, i dun even think i can cope or even Nap. Maybe only after being a mom myself, i started to appreciate the things she do for me although we still have our fights and disagreements. I guess it's jus like that for mom and daughter.

Having family around is great! My sis and Wangfei provides entertainment for my baby! It can be so funny sometimes, for those who have face book and can connect to my sis account, we 'put' the missing eyebrows on Tristan which we laugh until we couldn't stop..

Another person that i seem to take for granted is my darby, I must say that throughout my 50 hours of pain, without him constantly massaging me, encouraging me and loving me, i dun think i would have made it! As compared to me, my darby only had the small IKEA reclining chair to sleep on and he had to shutter between home and hospital everyday. What he had done for me and Tristan is jus beyond what i had expected or could have expect out of anybody.

It strange, i though that i might suffer from post natal depression but i can tell you now that i feel really great everyday! except that i get teary often.. hee hee

Tristan has put on weight since he came home.. Started at 2.69kg at birth, today he weights 3.12kg at 1 week!

Sorry picts all over the place, cos uploading it with my darby's comp and without photoshop... :P

Home run- FINALLY!!!

2009-10-02T07:21:00.005+08:00

It could be today, tomorrow or sun.... I think... Been having menses like contractions lately, esp last night and i can see spotting.. Could be my mucus plug releasing. :P

Darby had been really busy these few weeks, coming home really late, trying to finish up his work so that he can also go into 1 mth confinement! LOL. But yesterday he told my son that he can finally come out anytime now. It was a relieve. I was excited and at the same time scared. So now can only wait. :D

I'm all prepared and the rest is up to the lord... Pray for me! hee hee

Hello Stranger!

2009-09-23T20:53:00.009+08:00

I went to see the doc today. I'm 38 week pregnant now... lagging him around is really uncomfortable now adays. For the longest time, i was talking to this stranger but today, i finally know how he looks like!

Hello Tristan!

Birthing place

2009-09-19T03:03:00.005+08:00

Woken up by my own snoring n couldn't go back to sleep.. so decided to just wake up n do something rather than lie down. I do not have very uncomfortable symptoms during this pregnancy but my stuffy nose is killing me. It's so bad that everynight, i had to take a tablet to sleep if not, i either wake Darby or myself up with my snoring :( Haiz..

Went to see a new Gyne on Mon, 8.40am at Camden medical, Dr Lai, a male doc. I dun mind my doc being male or female but i find that he's more open and detailed in explaining stuff to me. I was impressed that he was willing to fit me in, last min, esp Mon at such an early timing, 8.40am, becos i know most doc would not do that. When i presented my rather loh saw version of the birth plan, he seems ok, except that he told me if i wanted a natural 3 stage, which is the birth of the placenta, than I'll need to take some iron tablets so to minimise postpartum bleeding. I told him that i dun mind active management in the 3rd stage of labor and will leave it to himto handle it.

After that at 11am, i went to TMC to tour, honestly, i didn't like that hospital.. Sorry Jan, Wendy and Sherrie who have birth there, I felt that it was like a market.. very noisy and crowded and it seems to me or how the marketing exe portrayed it as the service standard depended upon what kind of room u r in and how much u pay for them. She was also not very experienced and informed.

Finish at 12pm, had nothing to do cos the tour at Mount Alvernia was 2.30, i drove to Novena square for lunch. i actually didn't wan to tour Mount Alvernia cos i didn't really know how to get there but having seen TMC n was disappointed, i jus thot what the hack, if Mount Alvernia don't work out, i'll tour East Shore Hospital on the weekend.

Drove to Mount Alvernia and reach there early at 2pm. Was surprised that it was a catholic hospital. i was impressed by their service standards although it was a relative small hospital as compared to the other ones that i've visited. They gave me a goody bag which comprises of magazines, sample of Anmun Milk, their service brocheurs and also a free drink voucher! I thought that was very thoughtful of them. Our 'tour group' was small, just me and this very young couple and the lady that brought us touring the Hospital was very detail and friendly. I was impressed and was also happy to know that the nurses were all very friendly and nice. At that moment, i know that this is the hospital that i wan to birth in!

i am glad that i could tour different hospital and also changed doc last min. It's a bit risky to do such last min changes but i know it's all worth while. At least, i dun have to be induced at 39 weeks and have the option to chose the hospital that i want to birth in! Mount Alvernia is also the hospital that Darby was born in 36 years ago.. like father like son!

12th Sept- Eventful day!

2009-09-14T01:05:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was a very eventful day for me.

Morning:
My baby stuff were delivered- the cot, the car seat and the stroller. very happy and excited to see them.. reality sets in....

Afternoon:
Me, darby, mom, sis and Wangfei went to have DUCK RICE at east coast park hawker center. Supper yummy!!! Weather was very hot but as soon as out duck rice came, we finished it up in less than 1/2 an hour.

After lunch, we went for our 3rd Hypnobirthing class that we missed out. This class was super intensed because it was to teach us how to write our birth plan. We researched into topics like pain relief, delay cord clamping benefits, induction and augmentation of labour. For general knowledge, epidural will stay in the mom's and baby's body for up to 2 weeks!!!

I truely enjoyed the classes and really learned alot throughout the experience. I am also glad that now i can make informed decisions about the kind of birth that i want.

Night:
Finished at 6pm, we went over to darby's cousin's home to see his new baby girl, Natelie. very cute and adorable!

After that, met up with darby's parents for dinner at bukit merah (exactly where i dun know but i know it's opposite Alexandra hospital). While waiting for our dinner to come (BTW we were seated under a tree), we heard something that sounded like fire cracker and suddenly, a very big branch broke off and fell on us! Luckily, we were all ok and no one was injured at all! i really felt so blessed and lucky man that only the small branches and leaves fell and hit us! :D

Dinner was ok.. after that went home but actually after the Hypnobirthing class, i was thinking abt changing my doc and also the hospital. Spoke to darby abt it. My doc is the active management kind so i'm sure that she might not accept the kind of drug free, natural birth that i wanted. So at midnight, made up my mind to change my doc and also the hospital.

Midnight:
Sms my hypnobirthing coach and she will help me set up an appt with another doc. Will be seeing him mon morning and also will tour Thomson medical and also Mt Alvernia on mon. Gosh... changing doc during my 37th week... abit stressed up now... hee hee :P

Jus finished my birthplan - feels like going for an exam... =D

Happy Birthday Janet!

2009-09-09T08:48:00.003+08:00

For the Mother who live for her children.... Happy Birthday Jan...

Mother’s love is deeper than ocean,
Mother’s lesson is bigger than the sky,
Mother’s sacrifice is greater than God,
Mother’s lap is more comfortable than the warm bed,
Mother’s tale is better than the best novel on this earth,
Mother’s picture is more beautiful than a fascinating scenery,
Mother’s blessings are more powerful than the thousands of seas,
Mother’s shade is cooler than the shade of heavy laden trees,
Mother’s light is brighter than the sun,
Mother’s role is seventy times greater than the father,
Mother’s place is more sacred than any shrine,
Mother’s care higher than the heaven.

Happy Birthday Kisane!

2009-09-04T08:20:00.001+08:00

TRUE FRIENDSHIP
True friends are for life
Until the end
They're more than special
They're your bestest friends.

They're the ones you can go to
When you're in despair
The ones that'll help you
Even when you got gum in your hair!

They're the ones who'll laugh
And go laughing with you all through the night
The ones who'll help you
Help you with all their might

To have a good friend
You have to be one
So be nice to one another
So you can be friends forever
And that's how to be the best friend you can be

~ Samantha Sumler~

Please Mom and Dad

2009-09-02T11:56:00.004+08:00

My hands are small, I don't mean to spill my milk.
My Legs are short- please slow down so I can keep up.
Don't slap my hands when i touch something bright and pretty. I don't understand.
Please look at me when I talk to you. It lets me know you are really listening.
My feelings are tender- don't nag me all day. Let me make mistake without feeling stupid.
Don't expect the bed I make or the picture I draw to be perfect. Just love me for trying.
Remember, I am a child, not a small adult. Sometimes I don't understand what you are saying.
I love you so much. Please love me just for being myself , not just for the things I can do.

Author Unknown

Updates and Thank You's

2009-09-01T10:48:00.015+08:00

1. The last few weeks were busy busy for us. We finish our 4 Hypnobirthing classes which started on Aug 1 but we missed class 3 (how to write a birth plan) cos darby caught a flu. So will make up for it on 12 sept but the KS me has already done up my birth plan and 'pass up' to my instructor to take a look jus in case... We also finished our 2 Parenting classes last sun. 4 hrs on breast feeding... We were so tired after that man...

Verdict:- I think what we've paid for is all worthwhile cos there were so much information shared and now we know what kind of birth we want rather than let the hospital or doc dictate what is right for me and the baby. So i would recommend it to any mother who wans to have a easy, comfortable, relaxing birth! The parenting class is also great esp the breast feeeding class!

2. Last fri, my mum and me went to buy all the stuff that baby and i need, like diapers, washing detergent, my Pj for the hospital, breast pad etc.. Wah so many things to buy man!! Shopping... Shopping... Shopping!!!!

3. We also took out what Wendy's mom pass to me.. i didn't expect so many baby clothes, mittens and booties, blankets and pillows both new and used! basically i didn't need to buy any baby clothes and still have enough supply to keep for my sis and also more clothes for my baby until he reaches 2 years old i think..

4. Saw the doc on sat and she said she would wan me to give birth earlier, in my 39 week .. hmm that should be like end sept or very early oct.. that really send me panicking man.. so over the weekend i was trying to get everything ready and make sure i prepare everything.. I got so gan chonge that i couldn't sleep. LOL.. Until finally yesterday, i was so tired, i jus 'Peng san'. But at least now i feel better that most of the things are prepared already and i dun have to be so worried and stressed out! Now only waiting for the bed, stroller and car seat to be delivered on the 12 sept. Will major pack my room this coming weekend.

5. Baby is now 2.2 Kg and very very active.. head has turned down so now waiting for him to be in the LOA (Left Oxyput Anterior) position which doc say will happen around the 36 week.

6. Lastly, We would also like to say a SUPER BIG THANK YOU to all these Angels for their help and contribution, because without them, this journey would not have been so smooth and enjoyable..
- My Mom for the car seat, baby stuff and all that she has done for me
- My Sis for the Breast Pump
- My Dad for the steriliser
- My Mom, Dad and Sis in law for the Robinson voucher
- Wendy, 4th Aunty and Kieren for all the baby clothes supply and milk bottles
- Janet for her help in coming up with the shopping list
- Kisane and Lee for the Baby album

- All the Blessing and Well Wishes from friends and family!

Final Analysis

2009-08-26T04:51:00.010+08:00

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered;

Forgive them Anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;

Be kind anyway.

If you succeed, you will win some false friends and some true friends;

Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;

Be Honest and Frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;

Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, They may be jealous;

Be Happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;

Do Good anyway.

Give the world your Best anyway.

You see, in the final analysis it is between you and God;

It was never between you and them anyway.

~Mother Theresa~

Chill Out Nite

2009-07-30T04:33:00.010+08:00

It was the 1st time since i know darby that he 'chio' to go for a 'chill out nite' with his Mikoishi friends last friday! Of course i was surprised... ha ha ha

We had dinner at Lau Pa Sat before going to M hotel's J bar to listen to one of his friend play.. Dinner was not fantastic.. 10 beef n 5 chicken satay with rice cost $9 from store No.1!!!! Wah lau so ex.. and i was disappointed cos the meat was the minced kind.. Plus i was not even full after that.. Ordered curry chicken noodle + drumstick ($5), which was more satisfying man...
My darby 'trying out " the COOL look...Wah!!! Yan Tao!!! Slurp Slurp...

Our 1st memorable chill out nite photo.. Can see the giant pimple on the tip of my nose... goodness

Above: Darby's Mikoishi Art team
Below: The band that we were listening to.. The guy on the far left is Danny from Mikoishi..

Left: This is What the guys were having.. BEER!!!!!!!
Right: Shirley's temple is what me n darby were having... sob sob...

Movie Night

2009-07-23T05:56:00.004+08:00

Watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince on Monday with my darby, his colleagues and my friends Kisane n Lee. The movie was not bad.. Couldn't really remember much cos i read the book a few years ago. So have decided to read the book all over again now to see wat was missing from the movie.. and apparently... A LOT!

As usual, my son really loves movies.. he'll kick n move Non- Stop! It was the same with Transformers 2.. I had my sweet + salty pop corns (that was before i know i had diabetes)! After that, we went to Aston at Cathay for dinner.. Yummy! But i was thinking the steak at the east coast outlet tasted better.. hmmmm

Alamak

2009-07-22T05:21:00.006+08:00

Woke up to pee in the morning n saw a missed called from my doc.. Returned call and turned out... I've got the thing that i most dreaded- Gestational Diabetes!!!

Shit!!! was my 1st reaction.. than followed by F#&% no more supper :( hiaz..

Bo bian, i've got to go see a dietitian this sat and she will tell me wat i can eat n wat i can't. Luckily only 11 weeks more to go.. Can you imagine the torture... :(

Happy Birthday Wendy

2009-07-21T02:45:00.013+08:00

Today is a Special day for my cousin Wendy, who will be celebrating her birthday away from home. How fast time flies, it's almost a year since she left us for Sydney!

Happy Birthday Wendy... I wish you a wonderful life filled with love and happiness. I hope others bring you joy, just as you've brought joy to us!

We Miss you!

For You, Birthday Girl...

There's nothing to fear --- you're as good as the best,

As strong as the mightiest, too.

You can win in every battle or test;

For there's no one just like you.

There's only one you in the world today;

So nobody else, you see,

Can do your work in as fine a way:

You're the only you there'll be !

So face the world, and all life is yours

To conquer and love and live:

And you'll find the happiness that endures

In just the measure you give;

There's nothing too good for you to possess,

Nor heights where you cannot go:

Your power is more than belief or guess ---

It is something you have to know.

There is nothing to fear --- you can and you will.

For you are the invincible you.

Set your foot on the highest hill ---

There's nothing you cannot do.

Revamping...

2009-07-15T18:00:00.005+08:00

Looking at my blog n feeling bored with the colours n can't sleep so decided to revamp it! Changed the colour scheme and also the top.. i think now it looks more cheerful and happy!! I like it!!! :D

Been feeling abit stressed lately, maybe because of alot of miscomm abt issues during confinement time.. Hiaz.. I wonder who invented those stupid rules abt no bathing and wat to eat and wat not to eat?!? Why so many rules? Isn't after delivering a baby a time to rest and enjoy? No wonder some woman suffer from depression after birth. i dun see the population of ang mohs declining when straight after birth, they are able to take a bath and eat what they want and still surviving to a ripe old age. *really shake head*

Haiz, It's not that i wan to rebel against these "rules". I jus wan to discuss if there are ways to modify some of them...

Well, decided to jus not let anything affect me now and stay happy! :)

Eh. Ouey. You.

2009-07-14T22:08:00.006+08:00

Isn't it funny how names are smartly removed from conversation whenever you chance upon an old friend. And for the next 5 minutes, you wonder who the hell it is you are talking to, all the while trying to avoid asking the question "Er, sorry ah... What's your name hah?"

A name is more than something that we simply respond to, it reflects our personality, and for some strange reason, even manages to define us. So despite how terrible, old fashioned, boring, funny, weird sounding you might think your name is... Face it, I bet you can't imagine yourself being called anything else, right? Trust me. My sis is called Gidgetelena and her friends think that I am the one with the funny name. Go figure.

Yet, despite knowing that everyone eventually settles into their given name, I would like to think that my son would one day thank me for giving him a name that was unique, representative and just plain cool.

Over the past few months, friends and family have been offering an onslaught of baby boy names. Ranging from the corny... to the fantasy-que... to the new age hip... to colours... to lost ancient scripture even... While all the time, I was holding on to the name which I always thought I would call my first born son. Kainan. It's a long story that you can read up in my earlier post.

So blame it on constant mispronunciations, sounds-like-jokes, or whatever, I concede defeat and it's time for an alternative name. Maybe it's the nerves of writing something in stone, maybe it's the fear of my kid's possible embarassment, maybe Sheila should name him instead, maybe I have better luck in naming pets, maybe...

Tristan.

Enjoy your new name kiddo. That's gonna be it! Or at least until the next name panic comes. :P Luv, Dad.

Santa and Liam

2009-07-13T02:31:00.018+08:00

Today is baby Liam's 1 mth celebration. We had a delicious lunch, thanks to Uncle David, Auntie Irene, Daniel and Sherry. =D My favourite.. these delicious hainanese kuay kuay... WAH.... soft, chewy and super NICE!!!!

'Cousins get together sessions' = Major GOSSIPS!!!! ...where we talked abt kelong, prawning, blading, Ubin, seafood, iPhone and P.O.R.N. LOL.. Steven just kept mentioning it and spelling it out which i thought was so funny. We also had a very very cute Domi who kept asking for food and entertaining us with his ever so cute 'pls mummy' and other actions and who could forget the ever so active Isaac playing with his uncles...

I also had alot of good advice from Jan abt everything regarding baby, Breastfeeding, what to bring to the hospital, diapers, baby swimming classes.. etc so much info in last than 3 hrs... better than reading any books! Thanks Jan..
** Oh n who could forget the rose syrup jelly with longan... Jan I'm waiting!!!!!!

Oh as for the Santa part... my 4th auntie and Wendy.. Who gave me so many baby cloths and shoes which i have to sort through, baby bath tub, pillows, bed sheets and many many more. Now, i have them all wrapped up waiting to get a new drawer so that i could put them all insides. Thank you so much!!! It's really a blessing cos me and Darby can save money and also it makes me stress free so i dun have to worry abt what i need to buy!!!

Sat 11July
What started out as racky session for a baby changing table turned into us buying our baby cot which could be transformed into a toddler bed when he's older and a baby stroller... the 2 most expensive items on our list hahah.. i think darby was so scared of me walking back n forth between the 2 baby hyper stores countless times at kaki bukit that he decided to jus buy the one that fitted our budget, nice looking (very impt for him) and functional. By doing that, ended his ordeal of shopping (which he hates) and me going back n forth comparing prices, brand and quality. =P Thank you Darby for being so accommodating n loving!!! MUACKS!
Delivery date.. 12 Sept- include assembly as well.. Good buy!

Wat have i been up to..

2009-07-10T06:16:00.006+08:00

Mon 30 May
I went for another round of check up. The doc say that baby is healthy and is growing well. Whew! He's not over weight this time round, now weighing abt 958g and i gained 1.8 Kg since my last check up. He's confirmed a boy.. LOL.. Now my darby can't decide between 2 names for him- Kainan ( pronounced Kay-nen) and Tristen.. As for me, both names are ok..

Wed 1 July
Mom's birthday! went for dinner!!! yummy!!!!

Fri 3 July
Major Emo outbreak!!!! can ask darby abt it.. but i dun think he even wans to remember it! ---> YES, it's that bad... haiz

Sat 4 July
We attended a taster session for Hypnobirthing classes.. It's a prenatal class for drug free birthing. It has 4 classes n we'll be attending the 1 Aug sat 2pm class. We'll also be attending the parenting n breast feeding class.
http://www.fourtrimesters.com/hypnobirthing_classes.htm

Went to Ikea for dinner n also to search for the nappy changing table but couldn't find the one i wan so think have to go to kaki bukit baby center to look for it.

Sun 5th July
I was suppose to do my pedi but than couldn't wake up. Went to tampinese to return the starhub box and also had swensen ice cream! i had ny lime super soda and darby his usual colt tower with all chocolate ice cream. :)

Mom made chicken curry for dinner... YUM YUM!!!

Wed 8th July
Went to the library to return n renew some book than went to do my very long overdue pedicure... I was too lazy to go to roxy squre to look for my friend so decided to do it opposite my house.. Results... now my feet look so Cin-na!!!!!.. I'm so tempted to go have it repainted but than too lazy.. Haiz.. well maybe you might get to see my Cin-na toes this sun.. LOL

When i wake up in the middle of the night n can't sleep, i usually listen to HK radio top ten charts when i surf the net and EAT!!
PS: if you wan to listen, use realplayer instead of windows media player cos it streams faster.
http://www.rthk.org.hk/channel/radio2/

Fri 10th July
Woke up again.. This time feel super hot n thirsty although darby is wrap snugly in a blanket.. LOL. Need to pee as well. haiz. keep wanting to go to the toilet. Today i was good.. Ate an apple and drank Vitagen =P

Mee Suah

2009-07-09T06:07:00.003+08:00

Can't sleep n woke up hungry. So after updating my blog and reading Wendy's and Janet's blog, decided to cook this delicious Mee suah! I found it at NTUC and decided to give it a try. Very Very nice and easy to cook as well. Not expensive, $1.35 for 2 packs.

Wat's in my mee suah? - Veggies, 3 CP wantan, 1 egg and 1 pack of mee suah...

Walah!!!

This is the brand of mee suah that i bought.. =P

Mum's 60th B'day- 1st July 2009

2009-07-07T05:04:00.018+08:00

Mum and Dad

My mum turned 60 on 1 July 2009! We had a delicious dinner at the seafood place opp our house. Before that, my mum bought 5 delicious durians - sorry but no photos of durians.. LOL

Sambal Sweet potatoe leaf & fried Mee suah- Long live the b'day Mum!

Snowy Tofu & Chrispy fried chicken ( chicken skin with a thin layer of fish cake with sweet n sour sauce)

Fried scallop with banana n bak kua & CHILLI CRAB!!!! - opps for got to take the fried man tou =P

Sis & Wang fei eating mee suah

Handsome DARBY!!! =D

Double Cheezee Burger!!!

2009-06-24T04:49:00.007+08:00

Hiaz.. couldn't sleep so guess what... had craving for double cheese burger!!!! If darby knows abt it, he's going to kill me big time!!!!! Didn't wan to go out to buy so ordered Mc delivery 24/7.. My order.. 1 double cheese burger, 1 small fries and 1 ice tea.. $9.35!!! LoL at least i didn't upsize my order.. hahaha =P

Think i'll be getting a scolding from the doc on mon when i go see her again. Dun know how much weight i've put on so far.. Oh, jus measured my waistline, i'm 102 cm in circumference.... hahaha

I'm knitting a new jumper for my son.. but than because i'm using a size 6 needle instead or a size 4, the jumper is a bit bigger than the size given in the book.. so instead for a 6 mth old baby, i think have to wait till 1 year old than can wear!!! ---> will post the pic up when i'm done .. Will include the 1st sweater that i knitted... =D

Being Pregnant so far....

2009-06-16T03:09:00.001+08:00

I'm in my 6th mth now.. so far, i didn't have any discomfort and if my friend Tasha didn't make me take the pregnancy test, i think i might not even know that i'm pregnant! lol

Maybe i'm considered one of the luckier pregnant woman... My only discomfort in the very early days of my pregnancy was my breast being very very painful and sore till i cannot sleep. My cure.. i applied flex seed oil on both my breast and massage them 2 times a day. after i realised that i was pregnant, my cravings changed weekly from luncheon meat to chocolates, plum lime drink to bak zhang, oranges and now durians... ha ha ha these are some of the things that i would not eat before i was pregnant and now i find that i'm thinking constantly abt them.

I realised that some days i'm more emo esp at the end of the week from sat to Mon and i'm be alright from Tues days onwards.. dun ask me why but that seems to be the trend. I must say that my darby has been especially understanding, gentle and attentive towards me despite his taxing workload.. I'm a lucky woman.. Well besides my darby, having my dogs around gives me comfort as well, esp Washington, my cute little chihuahua.. haiz, i just can't stop smiling whenever i think abt him... =P

People say that woman feels insecure when they are pregnant, for me to combat it, i have a fetish that started in my second trimester... i like to smell my husband shirt.. (which he says that i'm bian tai!) The t-shirt that he wears to sleep, i will take n smell and hug it when i sleep so now a days, he'll pass me the t-shirt he slept in the previous night and wash the one that i use as my 'comfort blanket'.. hee hee hee

Being pregnant makes me do funny crazy things, and eat things that i'll won't probably touch last time. My tears will also fall at the slightest 'touching' stuff so can you imagine when i watch TV drama, I'll be crying non stop.. hee hee... So far, i think these 6 mths has been a happy and rewarding 6 mths... hmmm wonder will there be any major changes when i cross over to my last trimester? stay tune... Lol

Hungry Hippo

2009-06-15T02:30:00.003+08:00

Today is a eat non- stop day for me! i woke up around noon and was hungry so decided to make dry noodles for myself (egg n veggie included). After that i had mangosteen and than my dad bought back rojak n mom was tell me that my sis is bringing back nice durians from Malaysia for dinner. But to our disappointments, the taxi driver refused to let her bring the durians home.. so bo bian ...no durians :( but i kept thinking abt the durians... so finally bueh tahan, i went to interchange to buy 3 D13 durians for $20 :D.. ha ha ha.. my 1st time craving for durians and buying durians.. the uncle helped me pick 3 big fat durian with 'yellow flesh'. Me, mom and dad finished up 2 boxes of durians.. Yummy!!!!!!

For dinner, my inlaws came over to the coffee shop opposite our house for seafood dinner! we had a cold dish plate, crispy chai po tofu, sweet potato leaf fried with sambal, honey spareribs and the delicious salted egg crab! wah.. the crab is to die for! but sorry forgot to bring my hp down so didn't take any photos.. hee hee.. after dinner they ordered 2 more durians and i ate 1 small piece. Came back upstairs, i ate 1 red dragon fruit that my sis brought back from Malaysia... Now super full till cannot sleep... lol

Jialet, i think, when i see the doc again on the 29th of June, she'll tell me my baby is a bit fat again so i better watch my diet from tomorrow onwards.. haiz.. actually was thinking of buying bak zhang from hoe kee again for lunch but i think better stick to less fattening food for the time being...

hee hee.. durian uncle tole me that the 'white flesh' durian that i like will be available at the end of the month.. ha ha ha.. can't wait man!.... YUM!!!!!!

Bak Zhang

2009-06-13T04:39:00.008+08:00

I saw my sis eating her nonya zhang yesterday so went to hoe kee to get 2 bak zhang for my lunch today, $2.30 each.. Not bad i would say with alot of chestnuts and meat n very very good with lingham chilli sauce so i ate 11/2 of it all my myself! hee hee.. Wish that there was salted egg though..

Finally finished the taiwanese drama.. it was nice at some parts (cried alot and laughed alot) but i felt that some parts were totally redundant (fast forwarded)! Tomorrow darby and me going for buffet lunch at kuishinbo with his cousins.. i hope that they have the Alaskan king crabs.. so yummy.. but than for lunch, i doubt they'll have.. haiz.. but i know i will still enjoy the lunch!

Oh jus measured my tummy, i'm now 98cm all round.. grown 2cm since last week.. lol hope not getting too fat! hahahaha

I feel that i'm just like a baby now.. i'll be super tired at abt 11pm everynight n would dose off. Than by 3 am i'm awake.. haiz.. so i would usually make darby' s breakfast shake, read or watch tv (with earphones on) n will be tired at abt 5am n would drink a glass of milk and sleep till abt 10am. If i am lucky to sleep through, i will usually wake up at 6.30am cos that when my darby wakes up and make breakfast for him. Than i will be super hungry or would be craving something, n will need to go for breakfast at abt 7am .. i would need to nap again at abt 10am till noon.. ai yo.. really feel like a baby except that i dun need nappy change :(

Pray that Sherry will have a safe and smooth delivery!... =P

Watching new show

2009-06-09T01:47:00.005+08:00

After Ju Mong, i decided to watch the taiwan drama series that was highly recommended by my sis called 'You are my Destiny'. In chinese: Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni.. ai yo goodness, the last few epi i cried n cried... i cry until darby had to ask me to stop watching... hahahah

Did major house cleaning today with darby's help, now he's so tired so is fast asleep already... For the past few days, i wasn't feeling too well cos of my sinus. Nose keep getting blocked so couldn't sleep properly n was feeling really down over the weekend. But some sinus tablet that is ok for pregnant woman n abit of crying helps relieves the sinus... so today, i was feeling alot better! =D

Tummy Upset

2009-06-06T12:22:00.003+08:00

Had tummy upset yesterday! Woke up at 5.30 am to go toilet than after that can't sleep. Was hungry so decided to go market at 7am to eat the prawn kway tiao that i like but than not open haiz... so sad.. so walked to another market to eat my favourite kway tiao dry instead. Still yummy but would have prefered the prawn kway tiao soup.. =P

Cos of the tummy upset, so ate abt 3 tubs of my favourite meiji aloe yoghurt and finially in the evening i was ok. At 1 plus am, i was so hungry cos didn't have dinner, so darby drove me to the night market to have hokkien mee.. wah didn't expect so yummy!

Tummy cramps

2009-06-04T00:47:00.004+08:00

I've been experiencing lower tummy cramps.. think cos my tummy is expanding fast. Sometimes will cramp until can't walk n my right leg will feel abit numb. but after a while esp after i sit crossed legged for awhile, it'll be ok.. so strange.

Now, i super like to drink this lime plum honey drink that my dad bought from NTUC. it has that preserved sticky lime which come in a yellow box ( most of the time bought in malaysia) taste. Dun know if you'll know which one i mean but than, ai yo jus thinking abt it makes me wan to make another glass to drink.. it'll be my 3rd tonight...LOL =P

So fast, i'm already in my 5th mth and 2 more week later, i'll be in my 6th mth. My sis ask me to call this lady Ghinny Phang for my prenatal lessons.. Think she specialised in drug free birthing. so think will call her soon.. :) Can't sleep and finished Ju mong so prob will play some game!

Chocolates

2009-06-03T01:40:00.004+08:00

Wat have i been doing the past few weeks?!? EATING!!!!! been eating alot! Esp chocoloates (oh must be roche.. other types too sweet!) and coco pops! Dun know why been craving chocolates, since i've never been a big fan of chocolate. lol I finished my 1st knitted sweater abt a week ago. I'm so proud of myslf now.. I'll post the photo later. I am thinking of knitting a blanket for my baby.

Saw the doc yesterday for a detail scan and she said that everything is normal except that my baby is a little on the plumb side.. hee hee =P he's now 505g. I gained abt 2.5 kg this time, i think it's due to the irregular hours of eating. One of the sat night, i had to wake darby up to eat Mc Donald's breakfast with me at 4am so now he bought CP wanton fro me just in case i'm hungry at night. I finally finished the JuMong Korean drama (82 Epi)! Goodness me. This drama is not bad but i felt that some parts were alittle draggy.

Oh ya, i can feel the baby kick now. It started abt 2 weeks ago. he'll start to move or kick when ever i eat or after i eat! think i've a greedy baby! ha ha ha

Knit n Purl

2009-05-11T21:23:00.004+08:00

After the booties, i decided to embark on a new project! I am knitting a sweater! On fri, i down loaded the knitting instructions and free pattern from the Internet and ask darby to print out for me. Than i went to spotlight to but my yarn, needles and all other stuff that i need for my sweater. Went back home to try but unfortunately, i just couldn't get it right! :( so sad... think it's the needle that i bought was too big for the yarn.

Return to spotlight on sat again and this time, i decided not to act smart but follow exactly the brand n colour and size of the yarn n needles needed. Darby's back was stiff again n he was hungry so got to chop chop and can't really hang around too much. So exchanged the stuff i bought on fri, had lunch and got all the stuff home.

I spent the night knitting n unpicking and knitting n unpicking and still fail so bo bian, decided to go to bed. On sun, very buay gum guan, i tried again but this time, i compared the stitch pattern on the instruction book n it look different.. damn it! i just could not get past the 5th row before i destroyed everything and start again. I finally succeeded on the eleventh try and realised what went wrong at abt 11pm sun night. Wah lau.. didn't know that knit n purl could be so tough! Should have spent $40 at golden dragon n have a teacher coach me! But than, thinking back, i felt really accomplished and know that if i put my mind at something, nothing is impossible, even knitting! Hope to finish my sweater by end of this week! hee =D

Booties!

2009-05-08T14:24:00.004+08:00

I made booties! Last night i was looking at the pattern that Kisane prinited out for me and crochet Botties. I had to redo it 3 times to get it correct but after i got the hang of it, it took me abt 3o mins to make 1 bootie.. So excited.. now am looking for patterns for the sweater, hat and mittens!

Happy Mother's day!

2009-05-07T18:21:00.008+08:00

I was reading Wendy's blog n saw this meaningful writeup so had decided to steal it (Opps)... hee hee..

For all the mothers in the world.. Happy Mother's Day!

Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom, I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom .

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New Project

2009-05-07T17:55:00.006+08:00

I was busy yesterday... Went for a pedicure (finally) at abt 1.30pm at roxy square. Jac did a good job but than it took abt 2hr 30 mins to complete. After that i drove to Vivo city to meet Teresa, my Uni housemate for coffee n catch up session. It was fun to exchange pregnancy tips cos she has a daughter, Cayla that is 2 years old now. Very cute baby.

In the evening, abt 6.30 pm, went to pick Kisane up and drove off to Golden Dragon in people's park center to take a look at Crochet stuff cos i wanted to start on my new project for my baby. Have not crochet for a long long time so dun know if i'll succeed. LoL... browsed around but the pattern books are all in Japanese so we decided to go to spotlight instead at Plaza Singapura. Managed to find a crochet magazine and also picked up my ball of cotton n some tool and had dinner at cafe cartel. The whold day was fun except that dinner tasted like Dog food. I had a really horrible honey baked ribs which was so disappointing. Reached home at abt 11 plus n was so excited to start but by than, i was too tired already.. hee hee =P

Oh lastly, the last picture with the booties, i bought it when i was 13 weeks pregnant. Saw them at Tampinese 1 n thought that it was so cute so decided to buy them home!

Kainan Michael Ong

2009-05-06T10:15:00.003+08:00

That's what Sheila and I have (so far) decided to name our son. :D

I have liked the name Kainan for the longest time, it always sounded like a strong name to me. The origins of the name though are kinda funny though. It began all the way back in university days.

Perth being a boring place generally, most times are spent just being a couch potato at home watching home movies from Video Ezy. Sheila, on the other hand, prefers her Hong Kong drama serials. It was one of those visits to Perth's Chinatown, when we decided to rent a cartoon series called SlamDunk (which still happens to be one of my fav cartoons of all time). Anyway, the top basketball team was called Kainan and the name has been stuck in my head ever since. Sheila and I have often joked that our sons' names (we decided 3 last time! :P) would be... Kainan, Lucien and Kraven. In that age order.

Well, we have 4 plus months to confirm the name... Will see what inspires Sheila and me until the time comes!

2mm

2009-04-30T16:31:00.004+08:00

I couldn't put any pict up cos darby reinstalled my comp for me so i dun have photoshop. Now that i finally installed photoshop, i can show off my baby's 2mm dickie! Yeah! hahaha.. dun know if he'll kill me when he grows up and see this blog.. lol

Sometime i dun know what is so big deal with the size. Like i always say, it's not the size that matters but the technique right.. hee hee

I did a whole load of overdue ironing yesterday so was super tired. Picked out the cross stitch i wanted to do for my baby boy yesterday n started wth it.. i think will take me abt 1 mths to complete? :)

My poor darby has been down this whole mth.. 1st he had gout on his left 2nd toe which was painful and swollen, than he went to gym n over stretched his back muscle which took him more than 2 weeks to recover and now i think he caught a cold! ai yo my poor tou foo darby, hope that he gets well soon!!!!

It's a Boy!

2009-04-27T20:54:00.008+08:00

Went to the Doc today and IT"S A BOY! Yeah!!! I sort of expected it but my darby is super Happy! I am happy too of course. I had always known somehow that i'll have boys.. hee hee

Doc said i've put on abt 1.4 kg which is normal but i seem to be eating lesser as compared to initially. My darby is worried but i guess as long as i'm eating well it's ok. My tummy seem to be alot bigger this week, like a sudden explodsion. Now i look really pregnant. Went shopping for clothes for me and now i have to wear XL .. goodness! Also bought my breast feeding bra cos my breast is like 2 times bigger! These bra with no under wire are really comfy but the biggest size they have is C (which is my size now). I wonder how big will it get when i'm 9 mths man.. E? can't imagine..

It's 15 Weeks Lo..

2009-04-14T13:46:00.003+08:00

Happy 15 weeks baby! So far both of us are doing ok.. been more enegetic lately =P Looking forward to seeing the doc again in 2 weeks time. Hopefully, i'll be able to know if the baby is a girl or boy! hee hee =D

Check out that tummy, man!!!

2009-04-12T23:59:00.006+08:00

I was referring to mine actually.

Having a pregnant wife really has devastating effects on the husband. It's totally understandable that creating a newborn uses lotsa energy and feeding the mom tops the priority list. So eating every 4 hours is expected and considered the norm.

But what no one ever stops to think about is that the poor guy who does the crave-driving and wife-feeding is gonna surrounded by food all the time. It's no fun just sitting around looking at Sheila stuffing herself happily while I just ponder where to bring her in another 4 hours time. It becomes a case of "If you can't beat them, join them".

I am a gym freak. I go to gym 5 times a week, 2 hours before work every morning. I have repeated this regiment of mine for God knows how long. And I consider myself to be a very dedicated person.

Since knowing about Baby Ong, my routine life has been fliiped left, right, centre, upside down. I eat and snack constantly, my yong tau foo lunch has been replaced and I just had 5000 cal fish head curry in 2 days!

Maybe it's a sign that fatherhood is going to change me drastically. Or maybe it's a ying yang thing when it comes to pregnancy. When the wife gets preganant, her stomach grows. When the baby pops, it's the man's turn. Or maybe it's nature's way of making the man's stomach easier to bounce a baby during playtime.

:/

Long Weekend

2009-04-12T22:57:00.006+08:00

Sometimes i jus wonder, can we love a person all over again, even though we've been together for more than 10 years? This couple of weeks, i seem to take notice of my Darby more n more. I also seem to realise that he actually take notice of wat i like, wat i dun and all my other idiosyncracies as well, which i always thought that he doesn't bother in the past. =P Does being together a long time, makes me take him for granted? =D hmmm....

Finally ate my tom yam at Burlington sq on Friday.. It was good, than went to Ampang Yong Dou Foo for tea and also fix the car head lights which followed by shopping at Tampinese and finally had spize at simpang bedok for dinner. I had a very enjoyable day but my Darby ended up with swollen foot again.. lol

Sat was a spring cleaning day! i was so exhausted from it man! Had curry fish head for dinner.. YUMMY!

Today is a WOW day! I played world of war craft almost the whole day after lunch! Had Nana curry fish head for dinner again today.. hahahah.. jialets.. me and baby really love curry fish head! Hee hee hee!

Sometimes, simple is good..

2009-04-08T14:09:00.005+08:00

Happy 14 weeks, baby! Counting the weeks makes the days past by so fast. I'm in my 2nd trimester! wow!

Didn't do much the past week.. watched Confession of a shopaholic on sat.. super funny and i would recommend every girl to watch it! went to the beach for a stroll with my darby on Sunday evening.. It was nice! actually it was our 1st beach stroll.. ha ha ha.. I can see that darby wasn't used to just walking and talking esp when there is no air con but he still accommodated me and the baby cos it's something i wanted to do.. being pregnant is Great!

I also went for prenatal Yoga on mon so now my body is still sore for all the stretching. Had beef noodle at purvist st after that.. hmm yummy! =P

Low Risk!

2009-04-01T15:59:00.003+08:00

The nurse called me at 9.20am this morning to tell me that my blood test results were back n my baby is LOW RISK!!!! YEAH!!!!! I'm so happy.. wat a relieve! Actually i was thinking that even if it was high risk, i would also not go for Amniocentesis cos i dun wan to risk having a miscarriage.

I really thank the lord for answering my prayers and let my baby be healthy and strong! =D

Happy 13 weeks

2009-03-31T21:39:00.004+08:00

Well i'm in my last week of the 1st trimester.. so excited, esp after see the scan yesterday! There seems to be like things for me to do to prepare for the baby but right now, i just wan to chill out and enjoy my rest! hee hee =P

It's a flippin' Baby!

2009-03-31T15:17:00.006+08:00

Look below! That's the second pic of my kid! Okay, not the best picture or what, can barely see what looks like a skull of sorts.

The actual ultrasound scan was so much better! Sheila was lying down and couldn't really see the tv monitor. I, on the other hand, had the best seat in the house. I even saw the baby take a slurp of her surroundings with her tongue (FYI: all babies are born as girls first. :P) So funny!

This baby is sure active as hell. Kept moving and flipping in Sheila's tummy, at almost 7cm big, I am surprised Sheila can't feel anything. I hope this is a sign that the kid will be sporty and active like her old man.

The scan was kinda nerve wrecking, with all the talk about down syndrome risks etc, I was really nervous and just prayed for the best. Thank god, initial results were good, now only the blood test results left.

I really look forward to the next scan in 4 weeks time. By then, I wonder if we will be able to tell if baby will be a girl or boy. I feel like I am the first guest at a grand feast, can only anticipate the mouth watering tastes and eagerly awaiting the food! It's already 13 weeks and time has passed quickly, but the thought of waiting another 23 weeks for baby to pop is driving me crazy! :P

Nuchal Translucency Down's Syndrome Screening

2009-03-30T18:12:00.007+08:00

Today i went for my 2nd scan to see if my baby has the risk to be down syndrome. i was very excited to see the baby and didn't expect him to grow so much, double in fact.. he's now 67.4 mm wow! Saw him bouncing up and down non stop, waving his hands and even sticking out his tongue! so cute..

Doc measured the fluid behind his neck and it's 1.7mm which is normal. Anything below 2mm is normal.. Now i have to wait for the blood test that will be out in 2 days to confirm the risk.. so am keeping my fingers crossed. Will be seeing the doc next on 27 april...

If you are wondering what Nuchal Translucency Down's Syndrome Screening is.. pls read below

A nuchal translucency ultrasound measures the fluid at the back of a baby’s neck between 11 and 14 weeks of pregnancy.All babies have some fluid there, but babies with chromosome abnormalities such as Down syndrome, Trisomy 13, and Trisomy 18, tend to have an unusually high amount.

The most common explanation for a higher fluid level is some variation in normal development, but it can also indicate heart defects and certain rare genetic syndromes.

Samy's Curry

2009-03-28T22:09:00.008+08:00

Today i actually wanted to eat the Tom Yam soup at Burlington sq but when we went there, it was SOLD OUT! Damn!

So after $2 of ERP and $3 parking, together with my darby's swollen foot, we decided to go to the civil service club at Serangoon road to eat Samy's Curry.. It was fantastic! We had Masala chicken (our favorite), curry squid, fried fish and lots of papadam! Best of all, we ta bao 2 chicken back for supper or lunch tomorrow. hee hee =P

Now i feel so bloated, so decided to go downstairs to ta bao coke lime for me and teh C gosong peng from darby but when my mom saw me drinking coke lime, she marched towards me, confiscated it and handed me a Ribena instead.. haiz.. "No coke until you finish confinement!" was what she told me... :( Bo bian, pregnant so better be good...

If the shoe fits

2009-03-27T22:58:00.008+08:00

Cravings... Tiredness... Swollen feet... ZOMG!!! I am pregnant too!

Husband Pregnancy Syndrome is no myth and I am living proof.

I am a gym freak and I guess my body is my temple, yet these days, the temple seems to be getting really lazy and eating more "undesirables". I just finished 5 packs of kitkat 4 sticks in 2 days, craving for curry fish head and Carl's Junior Thick Burger.

Work is about the same yet, these past few weeks, I reach home to just plonk on the bed and would just wanna skip the bath and sleep til the next day. Considering I am a neat freak and bathe a minimum of 3 times a day, this just isn't me. Is it just age catching up? Seems that since turning 35, the cracks in the temple walls are coming fast and furious.

It's been 2 years plus since I had my gout attack. Out of the blue, I became bigfoot 2 days ago. Luckily, it is a minor attack this time and I am still able to walk (more like limp around). Strange considering that I haven't had much contact with beef or seafood. Good news for the lazy temple using this as an excuse to skip the morning workouts and torturous daily 5km cardio.

So! Husband Pregnancy Syndrome does exist and most of all... DARBY!!! GIVE BIRTH SOON!

Roller Coaster Ride

2009-03-27T15:08:00.010+08:00

These couple of days have been bad for me.. I've been really stressed up with my work n also my bills. Sometimes i do feel useless for not being able to help much although i understand that now the most important thing in my life is to have a healthy and happy baby.

I do ask god, 'why now? is this a good time?' but i guess there's never a perfect time to have a baby. So well, if it's his will to let me have the baby now instead of any other time, he'll show me solutions to all my problems. I will have faith and believe in him! =D

I dedicate this song to those who are asking the same question too...

In His Time

In His time, in His time,
He makes all thing beautiful in His time.
Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all thing beautiful in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time.

(http://my.homewithgod.com/heavenlymidis2/histime.html )

Happy 3 mths!

2009-03-24T20:19:00.005+08:00

Hi baby, happy happy 3 mths old... so proud of you n also proud of me for surviving this far... lol Am happily pregnant, eating and sleeping. Darby has been a great help these few days with the house work n i am so lucky to have him.

Feeling really absent minded and worst of all, sometimes i find it difficult to add up... i can't do my maths now... hahahaha.. jia lets.

=P

Rainbow Connection

2009-03-22T14:58:00.003+08:00

Ever since i found out that i was pregnant, my Darby treats me like a queen! I can really feel the LOVE oozing out of him. but there are some 'side effects'.. whenever i eat, he eats and whenever i sleep, he sleeps too.. hahaha he's having the pregnancy syndrome as well. lol

Didn't do much.. jus stayed at home and watch dvd, eat and sleep. I'm less stressful during these 3 days cos maybe i told darby abt the problems and stress i've been facing. I should have told him earlier but i was worried tat it might cause additional stress to him. Having the baby could add to the strain but i must stay positive that if God gave me this gift, he'll give me a way to solve all the problems that will come our way. I must have faith and be strong..

It was raining yesterday and i saw a rainbow jus above my flat. Felt so happy and blessed. i always believe that after every storm, there is always a rainbow. Even if there are times where we dun see the rainbow... it's always there in our hearts.

I wan PRATA!

2009-03-19T16:51:00.003+08:00

I'm in love with prata now.. Something that i won't eat before i'm pregnant. i could now eat a whole prata with egg and finish the Gravy! Oh goodness..

Told my cousin Janet. It's nice telling people i love cos i know they'll be happy for me.. now at least i've got another person to share this joy with! I feel lucky everyday to have a little life growing inside me.. How are you doing today baby? hee hee

I'm hungry and need to eat again... Fish soup!

Happy Family

2009-03-16T22:03:00.004+08:00

If you are looking at the photo n wondering.. wow that's alot of cats.. than i think you'll be shocked that that's only abt half of what we have at home. We have a total of 18 cats.. but now only 17 cos Oliver just passed away today- he's the white cat that looking at the camera. i didn't know why i picked him up in the 1st place. I jus did and drove him home and after that he just lived with us and followed us back to Singapore with 4 other cats, Ashley, Telcum aka tua pui, Pumpkin and Pepper.

Oliver joined our family when we were staying at rivervale, a very run down appartment in Perth for 1 year before moving back to singapore. He has always been a cat that likes to keep to himself and some of his favopurite companion. Very strange looking and very very greedy. His last days were spent with Jumbo who was also very sick recently. I'm glad that he had a good life and pass away at home cos i really dun like my animals to die in the hospital.

We'll miss you Oli-bu....

* Happy 11 weeks old baby.... *

Can I have more porridge?

2009-03-16T21:37:00.005+08:00

That was a line from the movie Oliver. Really old show.

Today, a 12 plus year old friend passed away. Oliver was his name and he came back to Singapore with me and the wife when we were returning from Australia. We are not really sure of his age as we found him hiding under our beetle car during a hail storm in Australia. And I never knew what compelled Sheila to bring him home. Maybe it was because he looked so much like Ashley (another white cat we have and the eldest of the felines) or he had an interesting pair of eyes, one green and one blue, or simply because he looked like some poor orphan called Oliver.

Oli-Pu-Pu... May you rest in peace and enjoy your new home in Heaven.

PS - I am not naming my kid Oliver. :|

Tired n bloated

2009-03-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

Feeling extremely tired n bloated maybe becos of my sinus. I didn't really sleep well as my nose kept running. Had fried rice so now am feeling extremely bloated. My back is also aching so think will go rest early today.

Showed darby's family baby's photo today. Had lunch than came back to have my afternoon nap. Need to start planning and packing my room so to make room for the baby..

=)

Family Day

2009-03-15T00:30:00.005+08:00

I went to OLPS church today to attend the monthly family day service. I wan to set a good example for my baby so will try to attend service whenever i can.

I prayed to God to let me be a good wife and mother. I know motherhood will change me and i already can see some changes in me. It's no longer abt myself or how i'm feel and wat i like or dislike, but now it more abt make decisions for my family... My precious husband and my child or children in the future.

Having to go thru the Nuchal Translucency Down's Syndrome Screening on the 30 mar made me regret my decision of postponing becoming a mummy. why didn't i wan to have a baby earlier? Now i have to put darby n myself thru the anxiety of having to worry if our baby is going to be down syndrome. I worry abt the decisions we'll have to make if we find out my baby is down syndrome. Haiz...

I'll pray hard that the Lord will not take this precious little gift away... One that will complete our family.

Come to Pappa!

2009-03-14T22:00:00.006+08:00

One of the best things when you are becoming a Dad is to tell people that you ARE going to be a dad!

After enduring tightly sealed lips lince learning of Darby's pregnancy, I can finally tell friends about the next most significant thing in my life... the first being my proposal to Darby, of course!

I think I am a creative person and being so... I wonder what's the most creative way I can tell friends and relatives about my approaching fatherhood. Hmmm...

"Hey guys, remember I told you that the first time I got drunk, I ended up with a girlfriend? The second time I got drunk, I married her? Anyway, I think it's time for that third drink... Cos in 6 months, I am gonna be a dad!"

Oh well, see what I can come up with on Monday. :D

Perfect 10

2009-03-13T17:25:00.009+08:00

2 weeks ago, everything was going as everyday does. Gym, work, play, sleep. A daily cycle that I have grown into.

Today, I caught a glimpse of the little person made by Darby and myself.

10 weeks old.

10 fingers.

10 toes.

It's an amazing difference between knowing and seeing. The first time I saw the semblance of a head and body and small arms and feet... I actually teared up with an overwhelming sense of "feeling". No words can describe. A mix of pride, amazement, joy, worry, apprehension.

I can't help but stare at Darby's tummy and wonder how is that person doing today. See you in 6 and a half months, Kiddo!

Happy 10 Weeks & 4 Days Old!

2009-03-13T15:57:00.007+08:00

Hey babe, you are 10 weeks n 4 days old! Just went for a check up today at Dr Yeoh's =P. So happy n excited. I saw the baby's arms moving , n he looked like he was dancing.. was so surprised that he's actually so big. He is 36.7mm from crown to his butt. Heard his heart beat too. It is really a very strange feeling to actually see the baby that is growing inside me. It's like seeing someone i've never met yet who seem to be really familiar to me. His estimated due date is 5 Oct 2009 which is just 1 day after my birthday.. hee hee =D

Killer mani n pedi session

2009-03-12T16:53:00.007+08:00

I went to do my nails yesterday. Something i enjoyed very very much in the past but yesterday was a killer session. It was 4 hrs long! most of the time being pampered 4hrs is a great luxury but not yesterday session. After the 1st hr, i sat there wondering when is this going to be over so that i can go home n nap. My back ache, my butt ache n my shoulder ache like crazy. I was jus dosing off on the chair. Jac did a fantastic job but she wanted to chat with me so much that a simple pedi took 3 hrs. After the 3rd hr, i was so exhusted that i jus couldn't go to lunch with her after that. lol

I know she was disappointed but i really couldn't take it any more. I jus had to come home to rest. darby was great, he massage my butt while i was washing the animals bowls. hee hee

Tomorro i will find out when i conceived. Really excited but at the same time worry. I worry that wat if Dr Yeoh scan me and couldn't find anything. Will everyone be disappointed? Esp darby? well i guess we'll know tomorrow... =D

Daddy's coming home soon!!!

2009-03-12T09:59:00.008+08:00

After this weekend, I am going to make another useless vow of never to do another freelance again, I wanna spend more time with my wife and her tummy.

I want to make life as comfortable as I can for my Darby... Get a new maid, drop Herbalife for now and just concentrate of her pregnancy, be there as much as possible... It's ironic that to do most of these, I need to do freelance to supplement the additional help. Sheila says that I earn enough, but I am one to always be as prepared as possible. Having more is always better than less. And in these uncertain economic times... Who knows what might happen tomorrow?

Oh well, one hurdle at a time.

Tomorrow is the day when I find out more about that little person growing inside Sheila. Very excited! How long has this 3rd person been listening in on our pillow talk... 1 month? 2? 3 even? Is it too early to tell if baby's gonna like Transformers or Barbie? So many questions... Hope I don't stone at the doctors place and forget all of them.

W.O.W

2009-03-08T21:40:00.004+08:00

I'm playing wow again with darby.. maybe i wan to spend more time with him so by playing wow at least we can spend more time together and do things together.. Other than wow, i dun know what we have in common already.

Well, i make a pretty lousy warlock, sometimes will drive my darby up the wall.. hee hee.. never mind, now it's 2 against 1 hopefully i'll play better with baby's help! =P

Mango Yogurt Smoothie

2009-03-06T17:27:00.004+08:00

I'm so in love with the Mango Yogurt smoothie.. Yummy.. been drinking that lately. N i jus had Fish soup with milk. Can't find the actual one so Bo bian went to my house opp to get the fish soup n add milk.. Not the best but just as good. So strange, pregnancy changes the things you love to eat. Before being pregnant, i have a very sweet tooth but now, i'm more into salty food. N when i take sweet stuff, i tend to feel sick, i wonder why.

Tired n Emo

2009-03-05T21:36:00.004+08:00

Being tired n emo is really a bad combo. I feel pretty needy sometimes but in alot of ways i need to control how i react which in fact can be abit of a torture. i know my darby is working hard for us and he's doing his best to give me and my baby a good n comfortable life. But i do need him to.. I need him to talk to me but seeing him tired, i guess i will just have to manage some of this emo bits on my own.

Anyway it's a passing phase. It comes in waves so i'll just have to brave thru this wave n wait for it to subside.

I must stay positive n happy but being pregnant is really tough. everything is changing, my waistline, my dress size and even what i like n dun like to eat changes. having to cope with it is so over whelming sometimes.

Out of Breath

2009-03-03T21:52:00.003+08:00

i'm so out of breath now a days.. Jus doing house work takes up alot of my energy already. I feel like i ran a 2.4 km marathorn. Told my mom and dad yesterday. they r both happy for me esp my dad. I feel so loved now that i can explode. Comparing to alot of people i really belong to the lucky few to have so many people caring for me, doting on me and loving me.. My increadiblly loving husdand, now my parents and not forgetting the lady we bought my pregnancy kit to make me test, Tasha and my baby's god ma Kisane.

This made me think of those ladies on the other end of the scale where their husband or boyfriend and families who dun wan or dun support their pregnancy. It must really be hurtful and torturing. And there is another group of laides who despite all odds, gave birth to their babies.. How great motherhood is... And to some it is jus simply bad luck!

Goodluck or bad, i believe that i'm always the lucky one.. I wan to treasure what i have and give the best to my baby and my family.
=D

How old r u?

2009-03-02T22:18:00.004+08:00

I kept wondering how old is my baby now.. but i will only find out on Mar 13 when i see Dr yeoh. been unable to sleep very well at night so in the day, i really need to take a nap. Darby has been very busy with work lately so i try to be a good wife by not being unreasonable or have any of my mood swings. But generally, now a days i've been pretty happy and stress free.

I want to be stress free cos i know i have a lucky baby. I want to be a pretty and happy mommy cos i wan a happy baby too. Yeah! =P

Greedy Me!

2009-03-01T21:00:00.003+08:00

I've been so greedy. It's a wonder wat pregnancy can do to ur appetite! I've been eating and eating and eating! hee hee

It's really wonderful being pregnant! my husband is like a new man! so attentive, so loving and so understanding! This makes me want to be pregnant more often! I really love to be pampered and loved by him.. thanks Darby.... I Love you too!

Just Being Contented

2009-02-27T23:31:00.007+08:00

i used to hear horror stories abt being pregnant. The constant morning sickness, the putting on weight n looking like an elephant and the terrible mood swings. So strange, i'm not having any of the above but a feeling of bliss and contentment.

I'm just feeling happy most of the time when i'm awake. Some how i notice a change in me, i'm not the usual bad tempered or the so quick to react type and maybe becos my movements are slower now, i'm taking time to enjoy things that i would usually miss when i'm in a rush. I'm beginning to really enjoy having a baby. I'm not only living for myself now but i also have a complete family that's the center of my world. =P

Work Werk Werx

2009-02-27T07:57:00.004+08:00

Haiz... It's the 24th day of pulling 16 hour work shifts... I am exhausted.

I wish this freelance didn't come now. So that I could share more of these happy moments with my Darby.

Bright side is that the extra money would be useful knowing that a little'un is on the way. :D

Would be so fun buying toys under the pretext that it's for the kid now!

Confirmation

2009-02-26T23:00:00.003+08:00

Well, it's confirmed... went to see a doc today to confirm it. hee hee

Didn't know that having a baby can be so exhausting. I just constantly tired!!!!! goodness me!!! the whole maternal instinct has not kicked in yet but at least now i'm starting to be more careful with wat i eat and wat i do. But the absent minded n forgetful part is both scary and funny. I know i will enjoy this process very much. I want to be a happy mummy so that i'll have a happy baby.. =P

Muhahahaha... This is the culprit speaking!

2009-02-26T09:43:00.005+08:00

The I-wanna-be-a-daddy bug has been with me for quite a while already. And now that the time has come... Well... Like the wife, maybe it hasn't really settled in yet. All those feelings of anxiety that you see in movies? Nada. Maybe it's cos work is really busy plus the added freelancing. But anxious, excited or what... I am happy!

Crossing the line

2009-02-25T22:48:00.002+08:00

25th Feb 2009 will be the 2nd most important date in my life. I found out from a pink test kit that i'm going to be a mummy soon. Maybe the whole idea of being a mummy is still new and has not set in yet so actually i'm feeling pretty calm.

I didn't expect that i'll be this calm, probable cos most of the time now, i feel very exhausted. Just doing my usual house work take up alot of my energy. i dun know how long have i been pregnant but i guess the baby may be more than 8 weeks old. My 1st doc's appt is on the 13 mar so i guess i will have to wait till than to fin dout more..

Need to bath n sleep.. back is aching already..
=P